Evolve

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👤Amoura |Tiny|
📍Houston,TX
🗓January 15th
/19/

|"I like being alone but not feeling alone"|
-Amoura Newman

Today really just a chill day i'm working as usual and staying to myself

normally jayeda here with me but she gotta take care of her momma in florida so she ain't gonna be back for a while

after everybody came to my house last night it took forever to get them to leave and ain't nobody clean shii up

they ain't allowed back no time soon

getting out of my thoughts i scrolled on my website seeing more orders come in i mentally sighed looking at the ones i've previously packaged

standing up to stretch and hopefully find some motivation to keep doing this

no this isn't my passion idk what i wanna do but i it to be something crazy and something most ppl don't do

not stripping or anything but something in that category i just gotta figure it out

i sat back down on the light brown wooden floors and started back up packaging

i told google home to turn on music hoping it would play something to ease my mind

shot clock by ella mai started playing.. this old song

its a vibe though

i bobbed my head to the beat getting wrapped up in my overwhelming thoughts and indecisive feelings

Flashback-10 years old
⚠️SA⚠️

"Tiny you wanna come with us" my nanny asked me concerned as to why i was standoffish

"Uhh no thank you nanny" i gave her a slight fake smile

"alright darlin we'll be back don't open the door for nobody i love ya" she gave me a sincere smile that instantly brightened my mood

as soon as her and my cousins walked out my mood dwelled again

i didn't feel welcomed or like i fit in with my cousins so i always chose to stay back nobody had ever realized that i didn't wanna be around but i genuinely don't

i was forced to come here tonight because my mom claims i never do anything

which is true i just feel more comfortable by myself

-30 mins later

Nanny and my cousins still weren't back so i took a nap

but something in me told me to wake up so i did

as soon as i opened my eyes the doorknob started moving and i figured it was my nanny but following her rules i didn't open it

a few minutes of the doorknob jiggling i grew worried

then the door flew open and in walked my uncle and right then and there my heart sunk