Today is halloween and i'm feeling better then what i was a few days ago
i listened to my mom and jayeda and got a therapist and a psychologist
turns out i have mild Depression,Anxiety, PTSD, and Depersonalization-derealization disorder
which occurs when you persistently or repeatedly have the feeling that you're observing yourself from outside your body or you have a sense that things around you aren't real, or both
i've gotten a treatment plan that doesn't include medication
and honestly it's been helping i haven't had a meltdown since the day at Jayedas and i haven't been out of body since the day i went to therapy
I broke up with Ahjee and he didn't take it well but it is what it is i have to focus on me
I'm going on vacation this weekend just to have a little me time, i'm not going far just because i'm going alone
I was going to Miami Fl , just to clear my head and have a little fun
and once i come back i'm starting my "career"
i've figured out what i wanna do it's not the ideal job but i'm gonna get it done
i feel like it'll be fun and i always knew i wasn't the "listen to everyone else' type person i wanna be my own boss and that's what i'm finna do
My flight is in 5hrs i should be leaving in about another hour to get there and get through security and baggage in time for my flight
-The Next day November 1st
I was out shopping so far i'd been having a good time even if i was alone
i was in the nike store when i accidentally bumped into someone i tripped and almost fell but they caught me before i face planted on the floor
"Omg im sorry my fault" i said as i gathered myself and my stuff
"aye you good?, ya heard me you ain't do nun wrong" i heard his deep raspy voice and when i looked up i seen
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fuck he was so fine he looked so familiar his voice ringing a bell i couldn't quite distinguish
