Promise Flower

Bloom

"Have you talked to Jimin today?" Tae asks editing photos at my dining table as he typically does.

"No," I say stealing a few of his chips from across the table. Jimin and I haven't spoken since I left his place on Friday. I wish I could say that I'm unbothered and I haven't thought anything about him since, but that would be a huge lie. I haven't stopped thinking about him all weekend. I haven't stopped crying about him all weekend, and I feel foolish.

"Still?" Tae asks. "I heard he didn't go to class today. I thought maybe you had talked to him by now and would know why."

"He didn't go to class?" I shouldn't care so much, right? I shouldn't be worried that something happened to him. He couldn't be bothered to apologize to me all weekend, so why should I care whether he went to class or not?

"That's what Taylor said. They have a class with Hoseok and he mentioned Jimin not going to class today. Maybe you should reach out?"

"Without him apologizing to me first? I don't think so."

"You want to know why though, don't you? He'd probably tell you."

"No he won't. He doesn't seem to want to tell me anything, but he's ok with kissing me and flirting with me. Ask Taylor to get more info from Hoseok if you want to know." He's not wrong, I do want to know why. But I'm not going to reach out to him first, that would only make it seem like I'm ok with how he's been leading me on and not apologizing for it, and I'm not.

"Don't you need more pictures? You can't avoid him the rest of the semester."

"Yes I can," I say stubbornly. "I have enough pictures, I'll be fine."

"If you say so," he chuckles. "So are you just going to pretend like you don't have feelings for him?"

"What else am I going to do?"

"Talk to him, crazy."

"Not until he decides to apologize. He needs to know that he can't just toy with me like that." I take a deep breath and let out a deep sigh. "Why won't he apologize?" My lip begins quivering and I try my damndest to keep from crying for the thousandth time since Friday.

"You're asking the wrong person."

He's right. I'm surprised he hasn't gotten sick of me going on about Jimin all weekend, or maybe he is but he's too nice to say so.

Tuesday the word on campus is that Jimin still hasn't shown up for class. Everyone assumes he's sick, and I'm sure that's what he may have told them, but I'm thinking he's not sick at all. If everyone else knew what went on between us then they would know he's not sick. I'm not sure why he's skipping class like this, but I assume he's trying to avoid me. Why go to such lengths though?

I wish I didn't feel the way I feel about him. I wish I didn't care as much as I do. I wish I wasn't sitting at home staring at my phone debating whether I should text him just to make sure he's ok. However, to my surprise a message from Jimin pops up as I'm staring at the screen.

[Jimin]: I know you're still mad at me and I'm really sorry. Can you come over tonight? I want to talk to you.

Part of me wants to say no out of childish stubbornness. It took him this long to say something, why should I hear him out now?

[Me]: Yeah I can come by.

But it wouldn't be fair to not hear him out. I'll give him three minutes to give me a good apology and then I'm out of there.

It would be kind of nice to see him too...

When I pull into the parking lot I have to take a moment for a few deep breaths. My heart is pounding and I'm nervous but I have no idea why. He should be the nervous one, he needs to apologize to me.