Promise Flower

Develop

My next attempt at developing my film thankfully works out better than my first try. It's still not perfect and I lost a few photos in the developing process, but I was able to get enough photos out of it to turn my assignment in and feel a bit of relief. I still have a lot of work to do when it comes to finding the right exposure when shooting film but I'm determined to do better on my next assignment which seems simple enough, we only need to take photos of patterns in everyday objects.

Tae has been getting settled in his new place with Taylor so outside of class I don't see him much. He's spent a lot of time going back and forth about how he wants to decorate the place. He won't even let anyone come over until he feels it's presentable.

Since I've felt a bit more relieved after getting my first assignment turned in the feeling of being suffocated by Jimin's attempts to cheer me up seems to have disappeared. I hated feeling that way and I'm glad it's passed. I'm still not sure why I felt that way, and I told him many times that he doesn't have to focus on me so much but he always insists.

It's like he feels responsible for my every mood and I wish he didn't. I don't want him to try so hard every time I'm feeling down. Most times I only want him to just be there and hold me, he doesn't even have to say a word. But the more he tries, the more I feel like I have to stay happy so he's not taking on the burden of cheering me up which results in me feeling suffocated.

Thankfully the feeling has passed now, I'm even satisfied with the B I received on my assignment considering the issues I had to overcome. I'm feeling much more confident this time around, I even shot two entire rolls of film determined to do much better.

Jimin has been working diligently on creating choreography for the class he's assisting in. At times he feels pressured but he's been doing a great job. I know he's dying to dance but I'm still incredibly proud of him for taking on this new challenge of teaching. Watching him work just makes me fall deeper and deeper for him.

Today I'm spending time in the photo lab to develop my two rolls of film. I'm taking my time to make sure I don't make any mistakes. My diligence and patience pays off and my newly developed film comes out perfectly. I'm ecstatic to see that none of my photos were ruined in the process, and all of my photos appear to be shot perfectly. I'm so happy I feel like I could go flying through the roof right now.

I leave the photo lab with a smile on my face and head to the dance department to find Jimin. I'm excited to show him how well I did this time. He's in the studio working with a student who needed a little extra help after class. I quietly slip in without disturbing them and watch him go through a few steps with the student.

When he's done the student leaves and he comes straight to me giving me a sweet kiss and his irresistible smile.

"You look extra happy today," he says.

"I am!" I say in excitement. "All of my photos came out perfect! Look!" I pull out my binder and show him all of my film that I just developed.

"Wow, babe you did great!" He smiles and gives me another kiss filling me with euphoria from head to toe. "I told you you would do better this time."

He gathers his things and we head out, this time going to his place. We always alternate between each other's places depending on which of us has the most work to do. Today it's his place so he can work on his choreography. He has one more day to work on it before he has to present it to his class and begin coaching them on it.

For lunch he throws a frozen pizza in the oven and we get comfortable on the couch. What's meant to be time for us to study and get work done turns into us devoting our attention to each other. My legs find their way across his lap and soon enough we're fully embraced and giggling between kisses like a couple of teenagers.