in love with a psycho

im pregnant

I was asleep for a good 5 hours, i was just absolutely exhausted. J was already gone as per usual when i woke up, that was expected tho as it was 4 pm. I couldn't be bothered to roll out of the covers yet tho, it's not like i had any responsibility's today i mean i'm literally being held captive by an insane clown with green hair. what more do you expect 😂

I heard the main entrance door open and close then followed by angry footsteps, they were becoming louder and louder suddenly stopping at my door. i could see a tall shadow under the door, it looked hesitant to come in. The door swung open and my reflexes weren't quick enough to act asleep so i was basically staring at the doorframe.

It was J. he was dressed in all black bulletproof gear and he had a black motorbike helmet on. he looked so hot...

"how you feeling doll?" his voice was softer than i expected it to be. J took off his helmet and sat on the bed, he immediately started to strip himself of his gear. "i feel much better thank you" i lied.

"THATS GREAT! we're going to the club later then now that i know you are all good to go"

A few hours later.

i was ready to go, dressed in a tight red minidress and my hair wavy. i felt hot. J looked even better though, we were basically matching, he was dressed in black dress pants with a Louis Vuitton belt and a deep red dress shirt with the top 3 buttons undone.

Once we arrived at the club i was immediately met with a lively crowd. J picked me up and put me over his shoulder, he was showing off, showing me off? he slapped my ass as he carried me through the crowd. Nobody dared say anything as they knew their life would probably be the consequence. "want a round of blue kamikaze shots.. your faveee" he smirks rubbing my thigh. J was in a playful mood tonight.

I knew i couldn't have any alcohol just incase "no i don't really feel like drinking tonight J" his face immediately dropped and his hand was running through his hair. Why did that piss him off so much?

"whatever you say Isabelle. your loss" he walks out of the VIP area leaving me alone.

Some time later me and J were fucking in a toilet cubical, i was enjoying it but then a wave of intense emotion waved over me and i started crying my eyes out for not reason. J immediately stopped and pulled out. "what's wrong Isabelle please tell me" his face full of concern for once. I considered all of my life choices in that moment, how mad would it make J if i told him i was carrying his baby?

"im pregnant" i whispered through a sob. "i'm so sorry" apologising wouldn't even do anything if he was that angry but it was worth a shot. A look of confusion and concern washed over his face.
silence.

"it's okay. you're okay.. get dressed we will leave after i have said my goodbyes" J said briefly after a long pause. oh no what if he's pissed off.

He walked out of the bathroom in a hurry. I just broke down, i can't believe i'm pregnant with the JOKERS baby. no no no. what if he makes me get an abortion. i don't want one. no no no.

the bathroom door suddenly jolted open. SHIT. i flinched but then i saw one of the workers on the poles tonight. "OMG girl i'm so sorry" the worker started to close the door again but then stopped.. "i'm sorry i don't mean to intrude miss but a-are you okay?" i started crying again. for fucks sake.

i explain everything that happened, i mentioned the pregnancy, how j reacted and i did not leave out one thing. i just explained my whole life story to a fucking stripper. what has my life come too.

the girls name was tricky, she would be quite pretty without the 1000 ml of lip fillers and the mountain of orange foundation on her face. her mascara was running, was she crying? she had a small pink miniskirt and a baby pink bralette on. and i can't forget the 10 inch heels but to be honest i actually liked her outfit.

Tricky hugged me for a good 10 minutes and as we were making our way out of the bathroom she slid a piece of paper into my hand. on the paper read 'here's my number. 7745102639. call it if you need a place to stay.' i hugged her and whispered "thank you" she just nodded and walked back into the bustling crowd of horny men. I walked up to the VIP area J said he was at. as i was walking in he was walking out, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me through the crowd and out of the door.

I see J's infamous purple lamborghini and he opens the door for me ushering me to get in the passenger seat. He closed the door with force once i was inside, half a second later he was in the drivers seat and we were driving at lightning speed. he didn't look angry but he certainly didn't look happy. that's the joker for you.

The silence was so loud during the drive. I wonder what will happen when we are home. i'm terrified.

HEYY!! i'm so sorry for the late update i had writers block. expect more updates soon lovelies <33