The Lies She Tells

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Lulu's POV

"Nooo" Elliot tried to fight out of my hand after I told her she needs a bath, after playing outside and had gotten herself dirty

"You need a bath you're dirty"

"Noo I want mommy" she huffed and sat down on the floor crying

"Mommy's busy she will be here later"

"Nooo I want mommy noww"

"Oh good lord" I lifted up my glasses to rub my eyes because I was stressed the fuck out

"What's going on?" Billie said outta no where

"Mommy" Elliot said excitedly jumping into her arms

"Hi my baby" she kissed her cheek

"How did you get in?"

"You're not exactly good at hiding the spare key" she threw the key to me and I caught it

"Thanks for the advice, Elliot has been playing outside and she needs a bath but won't listen to me"

"Hey you gotta listen to mama okay? I don't wanna put you in time out"

"Okay" she said snuggling into Billie's chest, Billie Is somehow really good with kids I don't know how she does it

"We're leaving now" she said

"Bye"

"Bye mommy" Elliot waved

"Bye my love"

I sighed when they left and looked down at my feet, I miss Billie so fucking much it's eating at me that she doesn't want me back and that she has moved on. All I could think about was the time I was pregnant and she'll always be by my side, give me cuddles every night, sing to me and the baby, tell stories, always made sure I was okay and comfortable, basically treated me like a queen. Then she turned to drugs and everything changed, we used to fight constantly, I used to hit her and she would choke me until I turned purple, she would cheat on me and do drugs right in front of me just to make me angry.

She never treated Elliot any differently than she does now, she never raised a single finger at her or was suprisenly never frustrated with her when she'll cry and scream because she was a baby at the time, she was always gentle and provided everything she needed since I couldn't work. We were happy at first, but things change. I just know after Billie's overdose it scared the shit outta me, even worse that I went to a party before that and got fucked up. Even though all that shit went down I still love her and crave her attention, I hate the idea of her being with someone else, eitier way I can't control what she does.

Billie's POV

I gave Elliot a bath and sat there as she played with her toys, and splashed around with the water, and blowing bubbles in the air with her hands. I emptied out the bathtub and took her out of it before drying her off and putting her into some pajamas. I brushed out her curls then carried her Into the living room so I can cook then put her to bed. All day I couldn't stop thinking about Audrey, I still feel bad for what I did I just don't know how to tell her because I know it's going to break her heart but she needs to know the truth.

I was cut out of my thoughts when I heard the doorbell ring, I turned down the heat of the food I was cooking and went to the door revealing Audrey behind it.

Great

"Hi" she smiled and kissed me

"Hey what are you doing here?"

"I wanted to see you guys if that's okay?"

"Yeah come In"

"Audreyyy" Elliot ran into her arms

"Hi kiddo" she picked her up resting her on her hip

"I missed you"

"I've missed you too baby" she kissed Elliot's cheek

"Food is almost ready"

"Okay" they both said and walked into the living room

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"Fuuck" I whispered as I thrusted into Audrey for the last time, Elliot fell asleep so we decided to have some time to ourselves, I pulled out and threw away the condom before laying right next to her sweaty and panting. She laid on my chest and played with my necklace, she then cupped my cheek and kissed my lips.

"I love you..like I really love you" She said while stroking my hair but I didn't say anything couldn't even get a word out I just froze and stared at her

"What you don't feel the same?"

"I-I'm sorry"

"Is it something I said?" She sat up pulling the blankets over her chest

"Audr-"

"Is it something I did?"

"Audrey I cheated on you" those words slipped out of my mouth and she paused looking at me with disbelief, her eyes watered and she hit my chest before getting up and grabbed her clothes putting them on "Audrey I'm sorry it was meaningless sex with my ex and I didn't mean to break your heart"

"Please stop talking to me Billie"

"Please Just hear me out" I grabbed her arm

"Don't touch me" she pulled it back

"Audrey-"

"I trusted you" she slapped me "and you do this to me fuck you Billie" she pushed me then got up grabbing her stuff and started leaving "oh and tell your ex that we're over so she can have you all she wants" she wiped her tears and left, I think it would make it worse If I went chasing after her so I just let her go.

Fuck I'm an idiot