• 𝙳𝚊𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 •

9 - Kill me

I walk into the yellow shaded room and catch eyes with Four. "I'm not gonna sugar coat this. You're gonna hate it." He sits me down and rests his hand on my thigh. "Well, I know that much." I sigh and move my hair for the needle. He injects the amber liquid. "You know what happens, I've explained it to you before. Are you gonna be okay?" He holds my shoulder. I nod slowly and start to drift off. I open my eyes and I'm struck with the sight of a room. I'm sat on a chair in the middle and everything is dimly lit. Somebody gets slammed into the door of the room and the lights immediately go out. I can't see anything. The panic starts to set in. I stand up and try to find the slight switch. I go to touch it when a moving mass touches my hand.

A light flashes and I see millions of black pointy spiders. I yell out in fear and fall to the floor. I think about how to get out of this when I mutter to myself. "This is not real." I fall back into the floor and fade into another world.

Fear 1 & 2 = Darkness & Spiders.

I blink and my parents and brother are stood in front of me. "You made a mistake. You are a mistake. You've failed us. You've failed yourself. Get out of here and don't come back. You're being disowned you absolute coward." My Dad spits as they all walk away. I try to yell out but then multiple papers fly and smack into my face. I grasp at one and read it. "Failed" is spread across my old exam papers. They keep flying at me and then I grab a bucket close by, dump it on the floor and strike a match. I run to the door, step half out, throw the match and run out, closing the door instantly.

Fear 3 = Failure

And...

Fear 4.

The room starts to lose air. It's being sucked out by a vacuum in the top corner. No no no.

Asphyxiation.

My second to worst one. I take my last breath and look at the electrics of the vacuum. I take a second before climbing up the electrical box and putting my foot through the vacuum. I intake a sharp and long breath as I jolt up in the seat. Both Peter and Four grab my shoulders. "... Shit Jaydan." Peter curses and looks at the time. "Wha-" "Go back." Four warns. "In there? No wa-" "JAYDAN YOU WERE 2 MINUTES. GO BACK INTO THE SIMULATION!" Four yells. I close my eyes and go limp as the door opens. "Jeanine." Four greets. Why is she here? "Is everything okay? I heard yelling. What did she do?" She asks, I can hear her heels clack. "She failed to complete one fear and started having a panic attack." Four explains.

"So why is he in here?" She asks. Must be about Peter. "Comfort." Peter responds. I wake up with a jolt and a harsh breath. "Ah, you okay my love?" She watches over me. "...Fine." I mumble and shake my head to reconnect with reality. "Hm. Okay then. Have a good rest of your day." She lets herself out. "Holy shit that was close." I breathe. "Too close. How did you get out of the dark?" Four asks, confused. "I fell back into it and morphed into the other room." I shrug. He nods and when I stand up its Peter's turn. I stay in the room and hold his hand as he goes into the sim. Hm. Maybe we're more similar than I thought.

Failure.

The next is harder to understand. Oh, wait. Now I get it.

Claustrophobia

I watch as he heads into another room. What's this one? Oohhhh...

Shark attack.

He swims into a sunken ship and goes through a door. A restaurant? A gun shot sounds and he sees his Dad fall to the floor. He tries to save his Dad before he's morphed into another room. How many fears does this guy have? I watch as... I walk through the door. What the hell? I look at him with a judging face on.

"You are nothing to me Peter. You will always be fucking nothing. You will never be good enough for me. You're patheti-" He kisses me. He then jolts awake and holds me tightly to him. I end up falling on his lap. His eyes search mine, terrified that it was real.

Fear of disappointing me.

"Oh, Peter." I hug him tightly. "You know you couldn't." I mumble. "But I did." He whispers. "And I forgave you. Remember? It's not the end of the world." I stroke his hair. "It felt like it." He whispers. The lost and solemn look on his face is evident. We both walk out and head towards a quiet room to calm down.

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