heartsick | junhao

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minghao watched from the table afar as wonwoo walked back with a crying chan beside him.

he furrowed his eyebrows as he watched the table quiet down, he was curious as to what happened. he knew that sangyeon did something stupid, but he didn't want to believe it.

he watched junhui and the others get up and walk out of the restaurant, and without second thought, minghao walked out behind them.

"chan, you go sit in the car, okay? i'm going to go pay for the meal," he heard junhui say ever so softly, he watched as chan's eyes widened again and he grabbed onto junhui.

"please don't leave me alone again, i don't... i can't be alone again..." chan whispered, minghao frowned at the sight. chan was always so loud, so it really made him wonder what happened. 

"you're safe now, channie," junhui said, softly caressing chan's hair as he looked into his eyes to secure comfort. "you have mingyu and wonwoo, who are both hella good fighters. they can take care of you, go to the car with them." chan nodded his head as he turned and ran to wonwoo, who immediately put his arm around him to make sure he felt safe.

junhui turned around to face minghao, his face scrunching up as he bumped into him, "sorry," he said, as he continued to walk away, not even realizing it was minghao.

minghao turned around and grabbed onto junhui's wrist, "god, what's with all the pervs tonight.." he muttered under his breath, "hey, i said i'm sorry," he finally turned to look, his eyes widened whenever he saw minghao.

"hey," minghao sighed out, smiling softly in an attempt to make junhui calm down and accept him.

"why are you here?" he said bluntly, showing no interest at all. minghao jokingly clutched his chest,

"ouch,"

"what are you saying ouch about?"

"the fact you're not paying attention to me anymore, what happened?"

"did you not hear the shit you said?" junhui asked in a matter-of-fact tone, rolling his eyes. "i don't know why you're making such an effort to talk to me,"

"because i do care for you, and i do love you, but it's just... you know how i am," minghao responded,

"minghao," junhui said softly, "i love you. you know i do, but... i don't want to. i don't want to love you," he admitted. pulling his arm away from minghao's hold, "i love you, not the pain that comes with it," he began to walk to the doors, leaving minghao behind.

"talk to me again whenever you figure yourself out," he said before walking into the restaurant to get the bill paid.

-

sangyeon stood in the bathroom on his phone, he wasn't in the least bit worried about what happened beforehand. he truly did think that was what chan wanted, and he truly was mad that he led him on like that.

it wasn't a lie that he was some sort of fuckboy, he was known for that. he'd have sex with anybody if they asked, or if they seemed interested.

"sangyeon, what the fuck did you do?!" minghao yelled as he entered the bathroom.

"i did exactly what you said," sangyeon responded calmly, "you told me to try and fuck him, and so i did."

"i said try and hook up with him, not sexually assault him!" minghao responded, "he did seem interested, yes, but you should have fucking stopped when he said no the first time,"

"how is that my fault?! i literally did as told," he said, giving minghao a dirty look. "don't be such a bitch, you caused this," sangyeon spat, making minghao lose all control as he slammed his head into the bathroom counter, leaving traces of blood on where his face hit.

sangyeon fell to the floor as minghao continued to kick him. whenever he felt like he did enough, he backed up and watched sangyeon cough.

he crouched down and moved sangyeon's hair out of his eyes, "i may be a bitch, but at least i don't try and get my way with people who obviously don't want to," he got up and kicked sangyeon one last time. "i'm going to call the police on you,"

"have fun in jail shithead, i hope you rot there."

-

junhui walked back to the car, rubbing his arms over his coat which didn't keep him warm at all.

why did they decide to park so far away?

as he walked, he felt a sudden warmth around his shoulders, "are you warm enough now?" he heard a familiar voice ask.

"i thought i told you to not talk to me," junhui responded coldly,

"that wasn't my question," minghao said slyly, "also, you told me to talk to you when i've figured myself out. i'm pretty positive on my feelings, junnie,"

he said, wrapping his arms around junhui's shoulders, in which he was shrugged off just as fast. junhui took off the jacket and handed it back to minghao, "thank you for the kind gesture, but i have my friends to get back to,"

that was the second time in one night minghao was left behind by junhui, which was weird. because usually it went the other way.

-

junhui got in the backseat of the warm car and sat beside chan, who wasn't crying anymore. but tears still stained his cheeks, "you guys forgot to pay,"

wonwoo turned around to look at junhui, "oh my god, i did forget. i was so mad that i just... stormed out,"

"don't worry about it, i payed for us. took out like three fourths of my credit card, though," he laughed lightly, scooting closer to chan so he could provide the boy some comfort.  "let's hurry and go home, i'm sure all of us just want to sleep.."

junhui wouldn't say it, but he felt terrible for doing this. he did this so he could make up to the others for being such a shitty person, but the night ended in him making his best friend feeling shitty as well.

junhui mentally cursed himself over and over again, he blamed himself for the entire situation. if he didn't decide he wanted to drink tonight, that wouldn't have happened to chan.

he wondered if they'd all be better off without him being there.

-

chan laid beside junhui, finding it hard to sleep. and it seemed like junhui couldn't sleep as well.

chan found comfort in jun's presence, he didn't know what it was, but he just felt at home whenever he was with him. he felt safe no matter what,

"are you still awake?" chan asked junhui, who nodded his head and made a little "mmm" sound as a response. "why can't you sleep?"

"saw minghao again tonight," junhui responded, "i hate him. but i love him," he said with a smile on his face, "love is complicated, isn't it?"

chan looked up to junhui and smiled, "yeah... it is,"

"chan?" junhui said, looking down to chan whose head was laying on the others chest as he felt the boys heartbeat quicken.

"yes, junnie?"

"please promise me, when you find the person you love... they won't be a shitty person,"

"i already have somebody i love," chan said, his eyes softening just thinking about it, "and he's the most genuine, caring person i know. so don't worry, i'll be safe with him," he nuzzled his head further into junhui's chest, trying to be as close with him as he possibly could be, even though basically every inch of their bodies were touching, they just couldn't get enough of the comfort.

"well, he's a lucky man to be loved by someone like you," junhui said softly, his heart beating faster.

chan blushed as he closed his eyes, "and i'm a lucky man to be able to love someone like him,"

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short ahh chapter i'm sorry 😭