Hardest to Lose (Villaraza Series #4)

27 | Listen

27 | Listen

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Marahas kong inalis sa mukha ang comforter at masamang tinitigan ang itaas.

Ang bobo ko.

When the alarm finally went off, malamya kong inangat ang katawan para maupo.

Should I go to school today? Was my meeting with the other college officers this afternoon?

Dapat pa ba akong mabuhay?

Idinikit ko ang mga palad sa mukha at impit na tumili.

I knew this would happen. But I did it, anyway. And now that I finally cooled down, I didn't think I even deserved to be seen anywhere but here.

For fuck's sake, Iñara, what were you trying to prove? You could have just left and be mature! Because you know the guy! But you didn't and even stooped so low!

Now how should you face him?

"Anong ginagawa mo?" Faye asked behind me.

"W-wala. Just checking," I replied as I looked from left to right while hiding behind a wall.

No signs of Markus yet, as I expected. Mamaya pa kasi ang klase namin na kasama siya at madalas naman siyang late. But, of course, I couldn't be so sure. Kailangan ko pa rin maging maingat at iwasan siya hangga't maaari.

"You're so weird today," Faye said. "Sino bang pinagtataguan mo?"

"Wala," sagot ko, hindi pa rin tumitigil sa paglingon-lingon.

"Uy, si Markus, o."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at sinundan kung saan siya nakaturo. "Where? He's here?"

Nang hindi umimik si Faye at hindi ko rin makita ang itinutukoy niya, dahan-dahan ko siyang nilingon. Faye looked so done with me, as if I was a rat she caught in a trap.

"So, that guy . . ." She crossed her arms and watched at me like she knew why I was acting like this.

"T-tara na nga!" And I grabbed her arm, taking her with me.

Nakarating kami sa classroom nang walang aberya. Mabuti rin at hindi na nag-usisa pa si Faye sa akin. I wouldn't know how to tell her I kissed Markus becaused I wanted to prove I wouldn't feel anything. Baka mas dumami pa ang tanong niya at mapilitan akong aminin ang mga bagay na ayoko pang ipaalam.

"Tapos ka na?" Faye asked.

Lumabas ako sa cubicle na ina-adjust ang t-shirt ko. "Tara na. Nando'n na ba sina Abba?"

"Oo, mauuna na raw sila tapos ire-reserve tayo ng mauupuan."

I nodded and we went out of the restroom.

It was our PE Day and we were to play volleyball. We had our lectures in the past weeks and this was our time for the actual performance. I played volleyball when I was young so this wasn't as hard for me. If I wasn't stupid yesterday, I would be extremely excited for this

Pagkarating namin sa grounds kung saan gaganapin ang volleyball ay naroon na ang professor, nasa ilalim ng puno at may kausap na kaklase namin. Some of our classmates saw us and they immediately waved for us to walk quickly. Most of them wanted to be my teammate so they were extraordinarily nice.

After some reminders and other stuff, we were divided. Kagrupo ko si Faye kaya tuwang-tuwa siya. At dahil ikalawang grupo kami, inabisuhan kaming manood muna kaya naupo kami sa damuhan. Maraming sinasabi si Faye tungkol sa isang queer film na napanood niya noong isang araw habang nakapako naman ang kalahati ng atensyon ko sa mga naglalaro. When Fortune's team spiked, I excitedly stood up with the others and cheered. Faye followed after as she hugged my other arm.