𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

08 | Avoiding

⚠️TW: DRUG ABUSE⚠️

*Song rec - I May Be Evil
by Landon Tewers*

I sit up, panting. Sweat beading down my forehead, making my hair stick to my skin. Chills formed on my body as I continued to breathe in and out, trying to calm myself down.

My room was dark, the only thing being heard was my breathing. The loneliness creeps in by the second.

My head falls as I bring my knees to my sweaty chest. Closing my eyes, the dream... or nightmare comes back into my mind as I squeeze my eyes closed. "I deserve this" I whisper, getting up from my bed.

Walking out of my room and to the kitchen. I rummage through the cabinets "Fucking Changbin" I mutter, not finding any of my bottles. I lean on the counter and look around my apartment.

My sober mind went to places I didn't like, pushing off the counter and going straight to my bathroom. Opening the cabinets to see a familiar orange bottle.

I contemplated for a second before letting my shaking hands grab the bottle, opening it, and grabbing two pills. I close the bottle and smash the two pills onto the counter, seeing the white substance. I stare at it for a moment before I could lean down my phone goes off in my room.

I stand back up and look in the direction before looking back at the crushed pills on my bathroom counter. "It will be okay... it will go away," I say to myself before leaning down and snorting them. Throwing my head back and feeling the familiar burn in my nose, smiling sadly.

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I punch the redhead again, his nose was bleeding and his cheek was split from my previous hit. I pull his head back, making him look me in my eyes "Now where is that pussy you call a boss?" I spat.

The male shook his head continuously "I told you, I don't know anything"

"Then your no use for me"

"No, please I have a wife. I have a kid" He said with tears in his eyes.

I let go of him and backed away, trying to push down this feeling of guilt. "Tell me where Moon is staying"

He shook his head "I told you, I don't know"

I look him up and down. He was on his knees, blood covering his face. His hands are tied behind his back and his head hangs down.

"Help me, help me and I'll let you go," I said, walking up to the hopeless-looking male. "Tell me all that you know"

"You'll kill me" He looks up slowly.

I shake my head "I'll make you a deal" I whisper to him, kneeling.

I didn't do this, but I felt desperate. I promised Changbin that nobody will hurt Felix. I didn't promise him much and when I did I felt like I had to hold on to them.

This man in from of me, I saw it in his eyes. He hated this life but once you get into this lifestyle you don't walk out of it alive. He knew that he couldn't just walk away once his wife got pregnant, he couldn't have a normal life.

I could give that to him.

He looked at me, "You tell me everything and I'll let you go, let them believe I killed you. You want that don't you? You want to be able to give that kid of yours a normal—safe life?"

"How can I trust you?"

"I should be asking you that"

He looks down for a moment before nodding "Okay, I'll tell you what I know" He looks back up as I smile and get up from where I knelt.