My Mistakes

Chapter 1: New school, New start

"New school, fresh start." I thought to myself.

"Hopefully there's someone like me there."

As I got out of bed I turned on my music. My morning music. The first song that came on was King for a Day by Pierce The Veil. As I picked out my outfit for school I stopped and thought to myself.

"Should I really wear this?"

It was my Black Veil Brides shirt with black skinnies. At my old school I was never the girl who fit in. I was the freaky emo girl with one true friend. My dad died a few years back so I live with my mom. She doesn't get me at all. A few years back I tried suicide. All because I was judged.

"It doesn't matter where I go to school" I thought to myself, "I'll always be the freaky emo."

So I put on my oufit and did my make up, Andy Biersack make up. I didn't care what people would say.As I walked upstairs for breakfast I met my mom at the top of the stairs.

"Go change Elyssa. Now." She said.

"Why?"

"You're not starting this new school looking like a freak."

"I don't care what people think. I want them to except me for me."

Ticked off, my mother walked away and helped my brother and sister. My mother adored them. I was the one who hung out in my room blasting my music. As I got ready to leave for school my mom stopped me.

"I don't want to hear anything when you get home about people calling you names. I warned you."

As I walked down to my bus stopped everyone started to stare at me. A few whispered to each other. Some of them said I was a freaky emo girl. I expected that from people. When the bus came everyone got on the bus and filled the seats. I searched for a seat. None were open and no one offered to let me sit by them. Then I noticed one boy. He stuck out the most. His hair, his outfit, his everything. I walked up to him.

"Is this seat taken?"

He smiled at me. He also had braces. That made it even more better.

"No! Not at all! If you wanna sit here you can!"

"Thanks!"

"My names Kellin."

"Like Kellin Quin!"

"Ya haha. What's yours?"

"My names Elyssa."

"That's a pretty name."

I blushed.

"Did you do your make up?" He asked.

"Yeah. I do my make up like Andy all the time."

"I do mine like that sometimes. But not all the time. I don't like to draw attention."

"He's perfect!" I thought to myself. "The braces, the hair, his eyes, his love for BVB"

Then I looked down at his back pack. In big letters it said PTV BVB and A7X. He must of designed it himself because I've never seen one like that before.

"You like PTV and A7X too?"

"Yeah. They saved my life."

"Mine too!"

We both blushed.

"We have so much in common." He said.

"I know right! I thought I was going to be the freaky emo girl with no friends to be honest."

"Well I'll stick with you. After all you are really cute."

I blushed and hid my face.

The rest of the bus we both sat there listening to music.

Finally the bus arrived at school.

As I got off the bus everyone starred at me.

"Ignore them." said Kellin.

Suddenly 5 girls came walking up to us.

"Uhm Kellin, who's the freak?"

"Sadie be nice to her! This is my friend Elyssa."

"Hi." I said with my head down.

"Well uh just an FYI Kellin sits with us and you're not aloud."

"Then I don't sit with you." said Kellin.

"Whatever suit yourself. See you at home little brother."

I sat there and starred at him in shock.

"Little brother?"

"Ya Sadie's my older sister. But don't worry, I got your back. She won't bother you again."

We walked up to the school. Kellin looked at me and smiled.

"What?"

"Nothing. It's just I've never met a girl like you."

"What's that suppose to mean?"

"You're really beautiful."

I blushed a ton. I was as red as a tomato. Suddenly the bell rang.

"Here lemme see your schedule."

I handed him it. He took me to my locker.

"Well here ya go! Locker 685. Right next to mine!"

I screamed on the inside. Oh my God! This is great! He looked at me again.

"We also have all classes together. So if you need any help just wait by your locker. I'll help you around."

We walked to first hour together. As we were walking he tried grabbing my hand. I blushed. Then his sister came and he pulled away.

"Kellin, I don't want you hanging out with her. She's a freak."

"She's just like me! We have so much in common! You can't tell me who I can and can't hang out with!"

Just then Sadie's eyes went big. She saw my arm. She saw the cuts up and down it. She grabbed Kellins arm and pulled him away.

"Just look at her arm Kellin! She's a suicidal! You don't need to be with someone like that! Come on. We're leaving."

As she pulled him he looked back and mouthed the words "I'll be back beautiful."

I sat there with tears in my eyes. It hurts to know that she could just judge me by looking at me. She doesn't know why I cut. I still remember when I first cut. I remember picking up the blade and attacking my arm. I remember the pain. It was the worse pain you could ever feel. I remember having to wear a ton of bandages to stop the bleeding too. That was the reason I didn't have man friends. I drove them away because of that. And now I lost Kellin.