Recovery. (Phan)

(3) Love Bites

Phil had told me that the only way to get in tact with myself is to join a gay-straight alliance or at least meet people like me, and that's exactly what I'm going to do, except not exactly... I feel that the only way to get in touch was to go to, a gay bar, I could find billions of people there just like me!

Looking at myself in the mirror I tried to see past my self loathe to find hidden beauty, no luck so far.

"Mom, I'm going out.." I looked at my mother watching a movie on the couch, a blanket wrapped around her, she gave me a sigh with a sorrowed look.

"With who?" she questioned

damnit

"uh, a friend I met at therapy...K byeee" I trailed off walking out the door.

"Daniel..." she yelled out the door, her voice pulling me inside

"Please, please, please, be safe alright?" her hands were brought to her lips

"Okay mother."

The night was young, and not to mention beautiful, the sun was just about to slip away on the horizon give the moon some space to breathe, the sky a dark blue color with stars shining miles and miles away, nights like these remind me of the times when I was carefree, when I was 100% happy with many friends along my side, it makes me wonder what I did to deserve a life like this. One where everyone hates you and is almost against you, when they say they love you and care about you so much and the lie and abandon you for someone else more important, was I not good enough? This is the night that this will change, I'm going to find someone who cares about me, and only me.

Approaching the bar I could see neon lights shining from the iced out windows, Taking a deep breath I walked in, shuffling past many people in the way, I had a feeling that tonight was going to be lucky, right away I ordered a drink to loosen up, and take in my surroundings, Sometimes I feel as if club are the nice name for a place that people get drunk and hook up, I never really thought or did sexual activities in my whole life but I wouldn't mind trying.. I'd imagine I'd have a hard time finding someone on account that I'm very unapproachable. Interrupting my thoughts I felt two eyes staring at me from across the room, a guy with platinum blonde hair and smoldering hazel eyes, his smile was warm and welcoming, almost inviting me over to talk to him. His eyes flickered between me and the two drinks sitting in front of him. Obeying his facial commands I got up and past the many people to talk to the gorgeous stranger.

"Hey" he smirked looking me up from head to toe "Your very cute." he continued

I felt my face get hot, sweat began to glisten on my forehead "Your not to bad yourself, I'm Dan.."

"I'm Blake, can I get you a drink? You look like you need one.." he laughed, I began to melt as I got closer with the stranger, he was more beautiful up close, snake bites pierced on his lower lip and his face very chiseled and sculpted.

"Sure." soon a shot was delivered my way, I shivered a the cold bitter taste of it, I smiled at him, giving him the impression that I liked the way he was treating me. After a few more shots he and I were getting a little drunker, and horny...

"Dan, please dance with me.." he laughed pulling me on to the dance floor with a thousand other people surrounding us, moving to the rhythm he slowly grabbed my hips and turned me around, rubbing his groin on my back, I could feel a bulge and while it felt usual it felt good. Resting his chin in the crevice of my neck I could smell the faint scent of alcohol of his breath.

"You're a great dancer..." I trailed off letting the rest of my body relax on his, the motions became more fierce, he began rubbing harder, causing me to me to moan at this foreign feeling.

"It's just you and me Dan.." he laughed, I felt a pair of lips ghost over my skin, causing me to get goose bumps, he pressed his lips on my neck, biting and licking the skin "Salty.." he whispered in my ear, I could see a few people glancing over at me and the boy, I hoped they thought that he was my badass lover. I'm starting to think that this is way better than a the gay-straight alliance Phil was talking about, wait, Phil.

I suddenly started to think about the raven haired boy and his words of wisdom, his cute smiling eyes and dimples, how could I think about Phil when Blake really likes me?

Blake jerked me around so I was facing him, his face sweaty but his eyes were hungry, he pulled me close, both of our mouths slightly gaped open as if we were about to kiss, Blake moaned in my mouth causing me to moan in return.

"Come with me.." he forcefully grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the mens restrooms "I need you." he continued to turning back, my palms were drenched with sweat, my body trembling in fear, I have never gone this far with anyone before.

We rushed into the stall, and surprisingly we weren't the only ones that were in the bathrooms messing around, everyone didn't seem to mind. He closed the door behind us and hungrily kiss me, his hand up my shirt stroking my back I moaned straight into his ear because I knew it's what he liked, speaking in moans, he moaned back and lowered himself to my fly

"W-what are you d-doing?" I asked arching my back against the plastic stall wall while he stroked Daniel jr.

"You've never been sucked off before?" he laughed and breathed hot air on my member. I couldn't believe this was happening me. My eyes fluttered shut and back open to watch take care of me. I could hear many moans of the other men in the bathroom echo off the walls, some were yelling phrases at their partner, begging and pleading for them to keep going.

"Like that?" he asked proud of the job he was doing

"Yes." was all I could choke out, until I shot my load into his mouth.

I could hear him swallow, he got up to meet my height

"Dan, your amazing.." I only smiled at him, for some reason there was this little feeling of guilt, like I just disrespected Phil..

A/N

Baby I'm a gansta too, and takes two to tango, you don't wanna dance wit me? Dance me? Honey I'm in love with you and if you don't feel the same boy, you don't wanna mess with me, mess with me. Love you guys keep reading! <3