BTS Concert 2 | vminkook

Part 7

"Okay from the top" Jimin says, standing by the mirror whilst he gets the music ready

"I'm so tired" Namjoon comments to Jungkook, wiping his forehead with a towel before they have to do it all again.

"I know me too, but the show is approaching and we can't exactly slack"

"I feel like I'm still not getting the spacing correctly for one of the changes" Yoongi mumbles, more to himself than anyone but Jungkook catches it.

"Ask hyung to work on it with you, he'll help"

Yoongi looks up to Jungkook and waves his hand dismissively. He'll see how this run through will go. Maybe if it went bad again he could ask...He doesn't really like asking for help.

They run through the whole thing again and Yoongi did stumble exactly where he thought he would. So at the end of practice, he approaches Jimin, rubbing the back of his head. "Hey"

"You okay hyung?" Jimin asks, gulping his water down.

"I uh, I could use some help with the positioning for the change we do half way through. I keep messing it up. Do you have some time spare to maybe help me go through it?"

Jimin notices the look on Yoongi's face when he's asking, it's almost as if something is bothering him.

"Of course. Let me know when you're free and we can have some time to go over that part okay? Anything you need"

Yoongi shoots him an awkward smile and nods. "Yeah okay. Thanks"

"Anytime"

As he walks away Jimin watches him with a curious look on his face

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Jimin:
Wanna go to the cafe with me?

Yoongi:
The HYBE one?

Jimin:
Mm

Yoongi:
When?

Jimin:
15 minutes?

Yoongi:
30?

Jimin:
Haha, sure. I'll see you there

Jimin gets the first, of course, and orders for himself and Yoongi. The other arrives only a few minutes late.

"Ah you ordered?" Yoongi points out as he sits down opposite the brunette.

"I know what you would have ordered" Jimin chuckles, stirring the straw in his drink as he watches Yoongi. There's a weird aura around him and he isn't sure how to bring it up so at first the conversation is normal. Typical topics, about life, some about work.

As they delve more into that Yoongi seems to avoid eye-contact a little though it was unintentional and Jimin can't help but ask at this point.

"Hyung are you okay?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean is anything wrong?"

Yoongi quirks his brows and finally looks to Jimin, "Does it seem like something is wrong?"

"Not necessarily wrong, but just like. You maybe haven't seemed like your normal self recently. I just wanted to say that if anything is up you know you can always talk to me you know? I know you're not too big on sharing or opening up, and I totally understand but I'm here for you if ever need anything"

Yoongi watches Jimin for a few seconds and then exhales quite loudly. "I've just uh-... been stressed a bit recently I guess. And that's affecting my songs, my dancing. I'm not doing too great cos my head just won't shut up".

"How come you're stressed?" he doesn't want to pry too much just in case Yoongi really didn't want to share but that was of course up to him.

"I just..." Yoongi sighs out, running his hands through his hair "I don't know. It's the stress of all of this you know? We have to reputation to uphold. We have to be constantly busy, barely rest, write amazing shows, perform with no fault. And I'm struggling to come up with good songs recently but it's my job so I keep being scared at not coming up with anything new or original or good. And then cos I'm always thinking about that, I mess up the dances, and just shut down".

Jimin listens intently but doesn't say anything yet, wanting to give Yoongi to opportunity to spill his heart out to him.

"I've done so much for the group, and I need to continue providing. I need to be perfect, to write perfect songs, to be the best I can be and I'm finding it hard. It's like I've lost myself a while ago and I don't know where to find the old me".

Jimin reaches out and squeezes Yoongi's arm with a sad smile on his face.

"Hyung"

Yoongi meets his eyes.

"You don't have to be perfect. No one is. That's the beauty of human nature, we all make mistakes and fuck up here and there. No one will hold it against you. If it was all sunshines and rainbows all the time, the world would be a very boring and annoying place don't you think? As for the songs, I can only imagine the stress of constantly having to come up with new things but the thing is every single thing you write, the fans love. Whether it was written with love and thought and meaning, or just robotically to get 'anything' out, they adore it. Because you did it. They can see the hard work you put into it regardless.

Sometimes the pain and frustration we feel teaches us new things about ourselves. Write about things you want to. Don't always feel pressure to create a hit because I guarantee a song you wouldn't think would do well, if written with thought and love, would top the charts. Let the pain of it all spill out onto the page, write about the pain and the hurt. Get out, create something out it. You have members who would back up up all the way. And who knows maybe something will inspire you one day, something random, something sudden and suddenly you'll feel the need to write. To compose.

All people suffer. Listening to another person going through something similar helps them. Helps them empathise and relate. It doesn't all have to be perky and happy. You're an amazing artist. In more than one aspect. I look up to you like crazy, but I also know how kind and funny and witty you are. You deserve a break too. I'm kind of glad we're going on that getaway soon actually".

Yoongi can't help but chuckle softly at the comment.

"But you can't blame yourself for lack of inspiration because that can literally come from anywhere at anytime. You can't always force it out. Your fans adore you, whether you're writing 100 songs a day or 1 song a year. Your stuff is amazing and the more 'you' you put into the songs, the more they can feel it. They love you for the person you are, not the things you create. You're only human hyung. You can only do so much".

"God, free therapy I love it" Yoongi finally speaks out, leaning back in his chair, exhaling and then giving Jimin that small smile of his. "Thanks Jimin, you uh -...I actually didn't realise I needed to hear that"

Jimin doesn't know if any of that even made sense, he kind of just let it all come from the heart.

"And with the dancing, don't worry. I can help you. We'll do private practices and even if you mess up so what! You're human. We make mistakes and no one would even care"

"I just feel like I have to be perfect"

"No one has to be perfect. You just need to enjoy what you do. And if you lose that passion for a bit, it'll come back because this? It's in your blood"

Yoongi places his hand on top of Jimin's and squeezes back a little. "Maybe you can come to the studio one day. See if we can brainstorm some things"

"I'd be honoured" Jimin chuckles, assuming it's a joke.

"You're too kind, you know? You didn't have to do this"

"I didn't do anything hyung, I just wanted you to know you can always talk to me if you're feeling down, or if you wanna get away from it all for a bit a do something. I'm here for you alright? I'm your friend too"

Yoongi smiles and nods. "I guess I can write about pain. Who says that wouldn't be a good song?"

"Exactly. Just anything you feel in the moment, let it spill".

He releases his hold on Jimin's hand and nods once, a little more confidently. "I'll give it a go".