WALLFLOWER // B.E

fourteen

juniper

"okay," billie spoke up after nearly an hour of us being on the roof in complete silence. "i don't know how much longer i can be quiet for. can we please talk?"

i let out a sigh. "yeah, alright."

we both turned on our sides. my brows raised as i noticed how close we had gotten to each other.

billie tilted her head as she looked at me. "you're really pretty, you know that?" she asked softly with a small smile played on her lips.

i felt my face flush. "shush," i murmured.

"it's true," billie chuckled.

i shook my head, trying not to get more flustered. neither of us said anything else, and we both held eye contact.

i watched as she darted her tongue out to lick her lips. my eyes lingered on her lips for a few moments, and i watched as they turned up into a subtle smirk.

i looked back up at her eyes. her eyes glanced down at my lips now, and they stayed there. she glanced back up at my eyes, and i briefly pulled my bottom lip between my teeth.

billie started to lean forward. without thinking, i started to lean forward a bit too.

when i noticed how close our lips were getting, i freaked out, and i suddenly pulled back. i cleared my throat. "it's, uh... it's getting late. we should go inside."

her mouthed opened, but then she closed it as she looked at me. she looked away. "oh... um, yeah... you're right," she awkwardly stumbled over her words as she sat up. "i, uh... i-i should get home."

"yeah," i mumbled.

i climbed down the ladder first. she followed me. we walked in complete silence back to my room. we were still silent as she gathered all of her things.

"i'll see you monday," she told me as she balled her fists up at her sides.

"yeah, see you," i gave a small nod as i fidgeted with my ring.

"sweet dreams, juniper," she gave a small smile. she then walked out of my room and out of the house.

i just stood there, anxiously fidgeting with my ring. when i heard her car start up, then drive off, i sat on my bed, and i held my face in my hands.

fuck.

why did i do that?

i want to kiss her so badly, so why did i—

oh my god.

that was so awkward.

fuck.

i ran my hand through my hair. i looked around for my phone. once i found it, i went to mine and billie's messages.

iMessages
billie

can we talk about what happened?
this text was deleted

i'm sorry
this text was deleted

i didn't mean to make things awkward
this text was deleted

i'm sorry i freaked out, but i did want to kiss you
this text was deleted

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i groaned as i turned my phone off. i threw it across the room, and i held my face in my hands again.