WALLFLOWER // B.E

fifty-three

juniper

it's been almost three weeks. to say things have been stressful these past few weeks, would be an extreme understatement. a lot has happened.

during the past few weeks, we've been trying to get a restraining order against mine and archer's mom. as of just earlier this week, everything was finalized. thankfully, we were able to get the restraining order.

i've never been so relieved. i feel like i can actually relax now.

although we got the restraining order, we haven't been able to do much relaxing. we've been looking for grandma and archer a place to live in that's close to my college. since it's just going to be the two of them living there, as well as me staying over some weekends, they don't need anything special; just a nice, cozy little house that they can make a home out of.

we've viewed just a little over ten houses now. we've managed to narrow it down to three.

there is one little thing... archer is nervous about moving. in an attempt to help him not be so nervous about it, me and billie have sat with him to make a powerpoint for each of the three houses that we've narrowed it down to, to showcase the pro's and con's of each house. he found the entire concept hilarious, and i can tell that it's definitely helped settle his nerves.

after the three of us spent hours making the three different powerpoint's for each of the houses, we showed them to grandma. she also found the entire thing comedic, but she entertained it for archer. they're now down to deciding between two houses; they said they'll let me know once they've made a decision.

on top of the restraining order and looking for a new house for grandma and archer, me and billie can officially move into our dorms starting tomorrow. we spent all day yesterday packing anything we'll need, as well as most of this morning.

now that we've finished that, i can finally relax and not have to worry about anything. although we move in tomorrow, our college classes don't start for another five days. i wish i had more time to relax, but at the same time, i'm really excited about starting college.

as of right now, me and billie are in her room. since she's packed a lot of her stuff for college, her room seems so bare compared to how it normally is. still, it feels cozy and is one of my favorite places to be.

we're both sitting on the floor, and we're both sat crisscrossed. my fingers are in the palm of billie's left hand; her right hand is tending to my nails. she's giving me a full-blown manicure, which she loves to do. she gave one to michael and finneas just earlier this week. she painted michael's nails white with black stars on them. claudia picked out finneas's nail colors, which were a pastel-like blue and purple.

billie's painting mine black. she had jokingly suggested putting a "b" on both of my ring-finger nails. i actually loved the idea, so she's putting a white "b" on both of my ring-finger nails. i then suggested that she should do the same, putting a "j" on her ring-finger nails, but the base color be white and the letter in black, which she loved as well.

i watched intently as billie continued to do my nails. she had this adorable, concentrated look on her face as she did them. her tongue would occasionally dart out to wet her lips. every now and again, she would sit up, run her hand through her hair to move it out of her face, then continue to do my nails. every two or so minutes, she would ask for a kiss, which i would happily give her.

"dr. howell said that we can continue our sessions even while i'm at college," i mentioned as i pulled one of my legs up to rest my cheek against my knee. "she said we can do our sessions over zoom; she's making an exception for me. she knows how hard it was for me to open up to her, and she didn't want me to have to try and find another therapist," i pouted a bit.