Worthless :A Encanto (Stranger Things AU)

9- Completely worthless

As I ran home with Agustín, time seemed to go slower, as if I was running through jelly. I knew my sacrifice was needed, but it was easier before. Now, everything was different. We were triplets once more. Mama loved me again. I'd spoken with Papa. And I'd gotten rid of the miracle. All in one day.

Finally, my life seemed, if not great, at least better than before.

So I was sad. But I kept going on anyways.

We arrived home. Everything was pretty dark.

"Great" I thought. I wouldn't admit it, but I was kinda scared of the dark.

Agustín and I went up the staircase and to my bedroom. We didn't talk. I didn't want Vecna to know he was here. We sat quietly in the darkness for a few minutes, giving the others time to reach the objective. 

I got hold of one of my notebooks and scribbled something.

"Hi!" I wrote.

Agustín reached for the notebook and wrote something.

"Hello! ;)" It said.

I smiled. He wrote something else.

"Do you wanna go to the cinema on Saturday?"

I smiled again. Only Agustín would get me to grin on a moment like this.

"Yeah" I wrote the reply "But I choose the movie"

"Fair enough"

I got hold of my notebook again and started drawing something. When your siblings are heroes, you spend a lot of time alone at home. And drawing's a nice way to kill time.

I showed him my drawing. It was the two of us, eating popcorn and sitting in the cinema.

He laughed in silence.

Suddenly, we heard noise. Like footsteps.

"It's time" I mouthed

I got away from Agustín and sat in the floor in the middle of my room. He clutched a music reproductor. I'd told him not to use it unless it's absolutely necessary.

"Hello, Vecna" I said loudly "I come to surrender to you. You can Vecna-ize me now or whatever. I'm ready"

I waited a few minutes, but I still found myself in my room.

"Why aren't you attacking me now?!?!?!"

Still, no answer. I took a deep breath.

"You know, this last few weeks have been really hard. Feeling like I'm always just barely there. It's hard to be a shadow of your own siblings. We're triplets, but it feels like I'm not a part of their lives. It's really hard to fake a smile when you're told you're worthless. I'm told I'm worthless so much that I believe it. I believe it. And more than once, when my siblings go on quests, I have the urge to, you know, stop breathing for a while. To use my sewing scissors on... Me. Just to see if they'd notice I wasn't there anymore"

There. I'd said it.

"You thought of killing yourself"

I gasped. 

"Agustín, you're not supposed to speak..."

"You're ill. You have problems! You should be locked away! Psycho!"

He looked at me as if I was a monster. My heart shattered into a million pieces.

"Why are you saying those mean things to me?" I started crying. My tears seemed to burn my face "I thought you loved me..."

He started getting closer to me. "Who would ever love a phychotic shadow, worthless girl like you? You are nothing."

His words hurt me like crystal shards piercing my skin.