the Marauders story- year one

first moon ever

March had flown by and with it so did Remus's fifth birthday, which was toned down a considerable amount, by Lyall because he didn't want to 'attract a crowd.'

But hope knew it was because he was planning on sending Remus away ever since the first of march 1965 because that was when Remus became a werewolf.

April, was drawing to a close and so the full moon was coming closer and closer, both Hope and Lyall were nervous about this, but for two very different reasons

Lyall was nervous because if word leaked out that his son was indeed a werewolf, the very thing that he had sworn he would kill in front of hundreds of people, he would be ruined. Nobody would ever trust him again and all the time he spent working into the late nights and waking in the earlier mornings would all be for nothing, he just couldn't let that happen no matter what. Lyall wanted to get rid of the pain in the arse of a son the second he found out about what happened, but his wife Hope, convinced him not to now though Lyall was beginning to ever regret making that decision. as it could quite potenially end his entire career in just one singular night, all because of a stupid son of his who just so happened to get bit by a werewolf.

Hope was nervous because she could tell that Lyall was beginning to ever regret making that decision that just so happened to save their boy's life. She was worried that he was going to act without any common sense and just take Remus out and abandon him like he wanted to since that awful night. Hope was also anxious because she knew the bare minimum about werewolves and that was all about hurting and killing them, never ever about trying to save or care for them. Hope had lots of built up anxiety about the moon, but worst of all hope was the one who saw Remus' swollen eyes, hope was the one who heard him apologise for what was out of his control at night, hope was the one that would hear Remus saying that he was a monster and evil.

But what was the hardest thing about it, was that she could absolutely nothing about it because it was what Remus grew up listening to, it was what remus grew up learning to and it was Lyall Joseph Lupin's fault because he taught the boy that werewolves were the most evil thing in this world and that there was no 'good' werewolf because they were all evil soulless monsters, Hope just wishes she could undo those thoughts in remus' head and convince him that he is a 'good' werewolf, because that is what he is.

A good werewolf.

And that is also what Hope hates most about Lyall, that he taught Remus that there are no 'good' werewolves, there are only 'bad' and 'evil.'

Remus was also nervous, he was nervous he was going to hurt mum or dad. Remus was nervous that dad was going to leave him alone, forever. Remus was scared if that big scary wolf came back again.

Remus was frightened to be who he is, let alone being the wolf for a whole night, he said he was sorry to his mummy and dad every time he got up and just before he went to sleep.

Remus was crying a lot lately because what happens if dad loses his job, it'll be all his fault. But for Mummy and dad's sake he never cried in front of them and to them and to everyone else he was the same old Remus like nothing ever happened, Remus only wished that, that was how it was.

That he was never this evil monster or that the big scary wolf had killed him instead of only biting him, he hated everything about it.

Daddy never took any notice of him except one night when he said that Remus was no longer his favourite little wizard, this broke Remus apart but he soldered on because that was what he had to do, anything to make his daddy proud of him.

Mummy never acknowledged it, she still played cards and chess with him like nothing was different. But Remus knew that his mummy knew that things would never ever be the same as what they were before that very terrible and awful night. Even though he was guilty about it he took advantage of it because he knew deep down that it could never last forever, so whenever mummy was free they spent that precious time together and the the best part of it was that he got the best bedtime stories ever, he never used to have bedtime stories but now he got them every night of every day.