You Make Me Feel (When I Feel Nothing) | Jenlisa [COMPLETED]

Final chapter

"I've already tried calling can you just drop it." Lisa says with exasperation in her tone. She's stayed out of her apartment as much as possible this week, the creeping loneliness and the voicemails she leaves on Jennie's cell enough to remind her that she's truly fucked this up. She didn't say it fast enough; she didn't move fast enough, she didn't chase her. All kinds of things that leave this to being her fault and her fault alone.

"You're really going to let her go that easily?" Rosé looks angry with her and she can't take it. Jennie isn't here, Jennie isn't beside her, Jennie hasn't spoken to her in a week and everything is in the air and unsure. If she'd answer a text, call her back, something simple so she knew what to do.

But nothing seems to be on her side for this one. "You think anything about this is easy? She walked out of my apartment after she told me she loved me." Lisa's teeth grind. "I've been waiting to say those words to her until it was perfect and instead I've ruined that too. Now she won't even answer my calls." Lisa tossed around the paper on her desk, barely meeting her friend's eye as her jaw worked. The anger surfacing, the dread of the situation gripping at her heart until she was close to suffocating.

Rosé shakes her head. "Go to her house, do something besides being here at your office. You look awful, she doesn't look much better." Rosé's voice is too loud, Lisa is fed up, heartbroken and tired.

She doesn't say that though, the mention of Jennie not looking good far more distracting than her own pain. "Is she okay?" Her voice breaks, wondering how she's supposed to fix this but not being able to think of a solution.

"No Lisa." Rosé shoves a hand through her hair. "You're both being stupid. You both bought rings with astronomical prices. You're supposed to be best friends, work this shit out." Rosé waves her hands around.

Lisa's heart palpitates. "She bought a ring?"

"Yes Lisa, she did. In July. She was going to ask you on your birthday and then again last week and then you had to go and fight with her." Rosé assigns the blame on her and perhaps she deserves it.

But she has spent all week blaming herself and coming up with no solution on how to fix this. "It isn't my fault she walked out, I asked her to stay. I begged her too. I call her every night and she never answers." Her tone is biting and cold, a way it hasn't been in a long time and Rosé is surprised to have this directed at her, staring at her with an unreadable emotion in her eyes.

"Lisa go to her, make her listen to you." She says instead of stopping.

"I have a lot of work to do, please leave my office." Lisa mumbles instead, looking away from her and back down at the papers she begins to shuffle between her hands. She isn't actually able to read any of them; none of the words even make sense.

All she can think about is Jennie.

"You know," Roé huffs and picks up her purse. "I'm here because I care about you both. You love each other so fix it." Rosé leaves as Lisa's flipping papers. When the office door clicks shut those papers are flying across the room, off her desk and hitting the floor to ceiling window.

It takes her ten minutes to leave her office; she doesn't pick up her papers.

***

"I swear to god Kim, open this door." Jisoo shouts with her fist still pounding on the wood. Jennie has managed to make her way out of her bedroom, blanket wrapped around her shoulders and eyes still puffy as she walks across the cold tile toward the door.

She frowns as she stares at it, Jisoo still pounding. Then she clears her throat and speaks up. "Is Lisa with you?" And for some reasons she's hopeful. Maybe Lisa will be there, though she doesn't know what she's going to do with it if she is.