the zombie next door

Enough

when Zed and i were little he would always try to include me in everything. if the other children were playing he'd try and drag me over there. i almost always declined. that's when the distance started to grow. we had always went to school together and as we grew up we just never talked. of course we had light conversations but nothing major. that's why i never acted on my crush. i didn't think he wanted to be with me. or be around me. i spent so much time getting to know him from afar that i just got used to never talking to him. just watching his every move like a stalker. so imagine my shock when Zed looked at me and said "if only you knew". knew what, how much i hated myself for this. how much he missed Addison. if only i knew what? that's the only question that swirled in my mind.

i finally let the words spill out "knew what Zed?" with a look over his shoulder he turned and grabbed my arms leaving me defenseless. "knew how much i cared for you Zeo." my mind was hazy i didn't know what to do or say. he gently let me go and sat down preparing for a long conversation. i stayed standing to calm my nerves. looking down at hime made me feel like i had an advantage i obviously didn't.

"you're smart, beautiful, and caring. i have never seen someone like you before. i've always admired you. you cross my mind more often than you think. as a matter of fact you're 99% of my thoughts. when i was with Addison i watched you and wished it was you i was with. but things don't work out like that i guess. my biggest regret was dating Addison and not you."

i stood there all most doubled over in shock. how could i have not noticed his feelings. i had spent a great part of my life watching from the background. i never once picked up on the fact that he liked me like this. "Zed i don't know what to say."

"do you feel the same about me Zeo?" he asked

"if you want me to be honest, yes and i have for a long time Zed. i just never said anything because i felt like i wasn't enough for you."

"oh Zeo you're more than enough." he stood up getting in my personal space yet again. he started making out with me more passionately than before. his hands roamed over my back slowly sliding down. he grabbed my ass with force and his other hand was on the back of my head, his fingers intertwined with my hair lightly pulling. it was a feeling i couldn't describe. we slowly moved over to the couch where he pushed me down. landing on my back he straddled me. i was catching my breath while he was kissing my neck. i could feel the weight of his body on mine. i put my hands on his shoulders a pushed his gaze into my eyes. "please promise me this is real" i said. i saw the famous smile i had obsessed over for years. "i promise this is real, now just follow my lead".

his strong hands guided my shirt off. i saw him stop to admire my pale skin. he went back in kissing me as i glided his shirt off, slowly scratching his back as i did. i looked down to see his skin. no imperfections just him. i watched his breathing for a minute. he slowly scooped me up propping me up to unclasp my bra. as the fabric fell off of me i could see satisfaction in his eyes. with my chest exposed i grabbed his waist band. undoing his belt he stood removing his last covering. i gazed at a man who looked like a greek statue. a carving from heaven. he straddled me yet again leaning down to my ear whispering "are you sure you want to do this?" i could only respond with a nod as i swallowed hard. he unbuttoned my jeans and slid them down to my ankles. he thumbed the waist band of my underwear. i could see his smile when he slid his fingers under the elastic ripping them off me.

after a moment of admiring each other in the nude he took his fingers and put them in his mouth sucking slowly making eye contact with me the whole time. without a word i felt him slide inside me. his cold fingers filled me with a bliss i didn't know i needed. he pushed his fingers deeper and put his mouth to mine leaving my moan to echo in his. i had never experienced such pain and pleasure at the same time. i felt the cold leave me. he took out a condom and slid it over his dick. he looked down at me and said "are you ready". i answered with a whimper "please Zed, please". as the words left my lips i felt the most excruciating pain in my life. i could feel the blood run down me. he covered my mouth with his non-dominant hand and glided the other gently over my clit. the pain turned into pleasure in an instant. i bit down on the hand covering my mouth. he removed it "harder" i moaned. he thrusted into with just the right force and speed almost sending me over the edge. i couldn't contain my screams. he kept pushing into me as he sucked on my neck and bit down on my jugular vein. his pace increased and i felt it coming. i screamed in satisfaction as he moaned in unison. "oh fuck" was the only think i heard him say. as my body convulsed in bliss i felt his muscles tighten then release. he looked me in my eyes still naked "i love you Zeo."