the zombie next door

Knock

Zed ran out before i could say anything in response. even if he was still in front of me i have no idea what i would've done. i thought about following behind him but he seemed upset so i decided to let it be. all i could do was think about that kiss. his hot breath mixed with mine. the lingering sensation on my neck. it was enough to drive me mad. his strong hands wrapped around my face, it was intoxicating.

after i sat dazed in the living room for a good 20 minutes i decided to get ready for bed. i straightened up the kitchen and went into my room. i tossed and turned all night thinking about Zed. i couldn't get him out of my head. not to mention i was running scenarios about school the next day. would he walk up to me and take my hand? are we going to start dating? i still had so many unanswered questions.

it felt like i had been asleep for 20 minutes when my alarm rang out. i was pissed and exhausted. i got ready for school pretty quick and that's when my nerves finally set in. with a shaky goodbye to my mom i walked out of the door. my hands were damp and my mouth was dry. i dreaded 3rd period. but i didn't have to wait that long to see Zed.

i walked up to my locker to put my books up for the day and i heard a clank behind the door. i look down and see red converse which was a sure sign that it was Zed. i close my locker with a bit of force and look up and see that handsome face of his. before i could say anything Zed said "Zeo i'm so sorry about last night, it was a heat of the moment thing i never intended to kiss you." he whispered the word kiss. like he was ashamed. was it because it had been me that he kissed and not Addison Wells. "well don't worry about it Zed since you're so embarrassed. we'll just act like it never happened." i stopped off to my class leaving him confused still standing by my locker.

that day was a blur up until 3rd period. i figured he would try to talk to me and fix his wrongs. but no, i was correct he was embarrassed of me. he didn't even look at me. God forbid Addison knew about last night. i heard the teacher call our names to present. i went up and stood in front of the class. it felt like they all knew. it felt like my dirty little secret was exposed. Zed kept his head down while i did all of the talking. there was no excitement in my voice. after we were done i took my seat trying to hold back tears. as soon as the bell rang i went to the restroom.

quietly sobbing in the girls bathroom was not how i intended this day to go. before i knew it my pity party was cut short by the warning bell. i walk up to the sink and look at myself in the mirror. it was the first time i had ever saw myself as truly pathetic. how could i think Zed would ever like me? i was stupid to even entertain the thought. i compose myself and walk to my 4th class leaving all emotions i previously had in that bathroom. the day was long and tiring but i got through it. i started my walk home when i saw Addison cuddled up to Zed. a volcano of emotions erupted out of me. i tried not to show it in my face but i don't think i was successful. i saw Zed look at me with a saddened expression. for a moment i thought he would run over to me but he never did. so i dragged myself home and slumped down in my bed.

my mom being gone so long was starting to take a toll on me. she didn't get home till i was in the bed most days and it wasn't like i had many friends to talk to about this. so feeling lonely i just sat in silence. until a knock broke through. a knock on the front door. thinking it was the mail i opened not expecting to see Zed.