the zombie next door

Poison

i carefully folded the paper trying to hide my smile. i couldn't let myself forgive him this easily. this boy had abused and tormented my emotions his whole life. from the day i saw him to the day that note feel out of my locker. there was no escaping his wrath. i could only blame myself though. i was the one who fell for his foolish charm and his idiotic laugh. my heart was almost divided. but there was still more of my soul that loved him rather than hated him. which is why i walked blindly into that light garden like a moth to a flame.

he was the only thought on my mind. he had been so cruel but gentle at the same time. i was delusional to think he could've still cared. why would you put a person through that. i couldn't grasp how the little boy that rolled around in the grass on his lawn, played pretend with his sister, laughed at my jokes when they weren't funny, or just take the time to get to know me would do something like this. 

i had no clear thoughts on the walk home. it was like a battle of good and evil and evil was winning. there were no words to describe my mood. i was erratic, hysterical, and glum all  at the same time. it was tiring, exhausting. i threw my backpack on the ground in it's normal resting place. i went to the bathroom taking an extra few minutes to look at myself. the person i was looking at wasn't me. how could i jeopardize my  integrity, my morals for a boy. this was all ludicrous. so instead of wasting my energy on meeting a man i had no hopes of every forgiving i sat in my room and went to bed. 

'Addison sat and waited for Zeo to take the bait. she knew someone as conceded as Zeo would love to show up and prove herself right. to have the last word even though everyone in Seabrook thought her to be a total clown. trying to steal a cheerleader's boyfriend. even though she did come close. even Addison realized Zed wasn't the same after hanging out with her. the thoughts Addison had about Zeo were nothing short of a murder fantasy. she hated her. as the distain grew in her body she stood up with a loud outburst that alerted almost every zombie in Zombietown. she heard doors open and lights flicker on. she escaped before ever gaining the sweet victory over Zeo. she never got to see the light vanish from her eyes when she saw her instead of Zed.'

school was a blur for the rest of the semester. it was christmas time now. ya know the time for joy and time for cheer bullshit. i had to see Addison's face everyday. it started becoming so frequent i convinced myself it was on purpose. in the bathrooms, hallways, even in a sea of students in the cafeteria. she would always be right in front of me. maybe it was just me. i felt like i was starting to go insane. i felt like i heard things that weren't there or felt a presence. but there was never anything. break was about to start and i was not looking forward to it. my mother had agreed to not have any of Zed's family over for any kind of celebration and i was grateful for that. 

i never saw Zed anywhere anymore. he hardly came to school on his free days from football. he always skipped 3rd period but so did Addison so i just kinda connected the dots. the pain was starting to dull and i could finally breath a little. on the last day of school i turned in all of my missing assignments. i was trying again. it felt refreshing. i was finally seeing some progress, 

my mother had made sure to decorate for the holiday, in her own zombie way. our house was cozy this time of year and i was looking forward to the vacation to just sit and stay in with my mom. it felt like we hadn't see each other in forever. i went to bed that night looking forward to the celebration tomorrow. 

"Zeo, honey go check and see if your father sent anything." 

mom still has hope that my father wants anything to do with me. but i oblige and head out the front door. that's when my blood ran cold. i looked down knowing immediately who had left it on my doorstep. looking down at the worn out rug there was a pristine, freshly baked cherry pie sitting on my porch. you could see the steam wafting in the wind. there was a note on the top. wrote on green paper all that was legible from my angle was "Zed".  i scream for my mother not knowing what else to do. at this point i was afraid to even touch it. i wouldn't put poisoning me below him.