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17. Healing ❤️‍🩹

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TWs: drugz, sui thoughts,
unhealthy coping mechanisms.

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YOUR POV;

My friend, Camila died 3 weeks ago. I don't know how to feel, her service was this Sunday and I showing up. I was there when she died, she was behind the wheel when a drunk driver hit us. I miss her a lot, she was my BEST FRIEND. Like my actual best friend not just one of your really good friends you call your best friend so they don't feel bad. I went up to her casket and just drowned in tears, we had always joked that we would die young bc we are stupid but I didn't actually think it could happen.

Right now I'm walking to a gas station that is near by, it's run by this guy named fezco I think. I'm only going there because Rue told me that we could get high if I bought some more drugs for her. She ran out, and Fezco doesn't sell to her anymore. I've tried drugs before, I used it as a coping mechanism until I got scared when I saw Rue almost OD. But atp I don't care anymore, if I OD then good riddance ig. I walked in to the store and,

ASH'S POV;

walked straight towards the fridge, she has never bought from me before, weird. She had big-ish eye bags, and smudged mascara, she was wearing baggy sweatpants and a graphic t. Her hair was messy, but you could tell it wasn't styled that way. It didn't look brushed. She was also weird gold hoop earrings and a necklace with what seems a countries shape on it. Either way she opened the fridge door and pulled a wallet from her pocket,

"Can I get 317b, 887, and 095?" She asked, you could tell her throat was a bit dry or tired. She might've been crying, she then looked me up and down. I just gave her a stone hard look, who tf is this girl?

"Sure, that will be 230 dollars" she just pulled the money out and handed it to me as I gave her 3 medium sized bags.

"thanks." Is all she said before leaving quickly. Fezco looked her up and down, the weird thing is that she got what Rue likes. I got up and walked towards my brother,

"Who's her?" I asked him

"Not sure, she has come in before but to buy other stuff. She looks like she's your age though, what she buy?"

"She bought exactly what rue likes" he just shrugged and got back to working,

"if she comes back try to get her name" he said to me before I walked back into the fridge.

"Ight"

YOUR POV;

I came back to rue with the drugs,

"Got 'em" I just said throwing the drugs at her, she catched them and smiled at me. We were at my house, in my room. My parents didn't know about me doing drugs, but they were at work rn. & my sister was out with some friends, so it was chill. She grabbed her card and started smashing one of the drugs and then made it into two lines.

"Who will go first" she asked me, and I shrugged. She just laughed and went ahead. After she did her line I did mine, it completely made me forget about Camila. She would be disappointed if she found out I got into drugs again.. but who cares yk? I just felt kind of numb but chill, and also out of control. Damn this stuff was strong. Or maybe we just did a lot? I don't know.

"I got an idea" rue says while standing up fast

"What?" I ask

"Let's go to Fezco's house. He's chill."

"Ight." I said, I didn't care tbh.

We walked over to fezco's house when-

"Damn Rue what is you doin?"

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Thank you all for reading!! Part two coming out tomorrow morning 😻

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