Candied Secrets- A. Morozova

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Ok, so I have written a new chapter and I just need to proof read it, but I'm not sure whether I should actually publish it, bc it's disturbing for several reasons. 

There is also a sex scene and I'm sure it won't be what you all expected it to be. I mean, c'mon guys, they don't have a relationship yet and she explicitly told the readers that she's going to wait until after marriage- old school. 

This is me asking for your understanding. I did imply at several occasions that the relationship between Endellion and her father had been somewhat abusive/toxic, whatever you want to call it and that she preferred to keep her distance from people, especially the General, because he reminds her of her father. I've also implied that she misses and loves her father and that is why I need to ask you once more: Please understand- I'm not romanticising abuse or mental deseases, I'm trying to give you a look into why Endellion is the way she is and also I need her to face these hardships so she can make decisions accordingly. 

If you say, you can't read this story, because it's too dark- please go now. 

Some may ask why her father couldn't just have died, why is this relevant for the plot? That question is one I posed myself from the very beginning, but the more I write this fanfic the more I'm starting to realise that it is much more than a piece of my imagination. 

It's my way of sharing with others what moves me and yes, the described content was something I had experience with and no, not directly my own father. 

I've come to realise that Endellion is written from my perspective and therefore, yes: She has this father and she has to deal with that and it is the reason she will have certain relations with people and understand the darkness in others better in order to actually consider seeing the Darkling in another light. 

If her rosered sunglasses weren't removed in that way, they would have needed to be removed in another way, but it wouldn't have had the exact effect that I desired and I'm not willing to compromise on this as it is my own story and I also believe that it is imortant to talk about such topics. I hope that is understandable and I hope you give me some feedback, whether you can take dark content or not. 

Much love, 

Inkwinds.