White and black, light and dark, ying and yang. The concept of perfect balance in two opposites created to fit perfectly together.
That's not how real life works at all, though. Alina Starkov may have been the sun summoner: young, inexperienced, na...
Author's note: I had to split this chapter into two parts, because I felt the emotion deserved more space to take on full force. Tell me how convincing the emotional roller coaster was at the end of both chapters if you would please.
Also, these tracks I put into the chapters were the ones I listened to on a constant loop throughout writing the scenes. You might find them to be quite well fitting for the moods concerning the seperate parts.
Enjoy your reading experience and please write me if you find any mistakes.
Much love,
Inkwinds.
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My knee had ceased to bleed some time after I had first started to make my way to the decrepid, old port and sat down on one of the countless crates populating its confines.
I could sense the metabolistical signature of a child coming from further off to the water.
"When the person I trusted the most in my life shattered that unwavering belief I had into him and the person that I had seen as my bastion of calm crumbled in front of me to reveal the truth I swore that I would never trust in, nor depend on another person ever again..." I said out loud. And I knew he could hear me, I just felt it inside of me like I had felt that he was something else.
Something special, something special to me.
"I was so unbearably hurt by the disappointment I felt, and not only was I disappointed in the person that I felt had betrayed me, but also in my own weakness, my naivety that had made me so vulnerable, so easily exploited by others." My voice grew hard at the memory of my father.
A faint rustling rang out near the border of the water and I gently smiled to myself.
"I swore I would never allow another person to fool me like that again, to never allow another person as close that they would be able to hurt me like that ever again. I still hold onto that promise, Kaz. But not because I blame humans for their very nature of being imperfect and unreliable."
"Why then?!" Kaz angrily exclaimed, but all I could hear was a deep sense of hurt and betrayal in his voice.
I knew exactly how he felt in that moment. I knew icicles were piercing through that young, still beating heart and freezing it into stone hart christal from deep within.
And if he was exactly like me... it would only take one single further betrayal to shatter that christal heart and kill all emotions inside of it.
It had taken me well over a decade to wake up from the winter that had kept my consciousness and empathy hibernating. But it would be impossible to rebuild me into the girl I once was.
