Ello guys! So this wise person once told me I had to write every day if I wanted to be good at it, and I haven’t been writing enough these days, so I’m challenging to write thirty short stories, in thirty days where basically I put my music on shuffle, and pick a song, and write something about it, a short story, a poem whatever. So enjoy I guess haha?
Song: Half Moon Bay – Train
“Why do you think that?” I asked, laying back into my bed.
“Because don’t you see-“ she cut herself off when she said the word see. “Ok well that was a bad choice of words, but trust me Alex, she totally loves you.”
“Why? We had sex once, and then had a heart to heart, and became friends and only friends” I exaggerated the word only hoping she would get the point, and realize this was not something I wanted to talk about. I wasn’t sure what to say, part of me was begging for her to be right, and another part of me wanting to just leave and not come back, to forget about her forever.
“You’re an idiot.” Sydney spoke in a motherly voice, my younger sister was trying to help me here, and I was not listening to her.
“No,” I said, “She’s the idiot if she likes me. Why would she love a blind guy?”
“You’re interesting.”
“Thanks for the reassurance, but I don’t think that a thirteen year old can tell me that, the only thing thirteen year olds are interested in is whether or not Justin Beiber smoked weed. ”
“Alex, we’re leaving in the morning, if you want her you need to go talk to her.” She sighed bringing up the subject that I knew was coming sooner or later.
“Maybe I don’t want her ok?” I was yelling at her now, but I didn’t even care. “Maybe I don’t want her, and maybe when we get back home I’ll find another girl I like just as much, maybe I just think I like her more then I liked other girls because she was the only one I got to know out of them. Huh? Did you ever think of that Sydney?” I was going to say something else but I realized that I didn’t even know what I was talking about anymore, and I didn’t continue talking, before I could think of a way to get back to the subject she cut me off with a question.
“Alex you want her don’t you?”
“More than anything,” I didn’t even want to lie to myself anymore. It was a waste of time. I put my hands on top of my face instinctively knowing that my hair was in my eyes, and pushed it back out of the way.
“Go get her.”
“How do you expect me to do that?”
She didn’t answer instead, I heard her walk out the door, and listened to it creak closed. When she came back she was talking to someone else.
“You’ve got to be out of your mind I am not driving him to this girls house at-“ Whoever it was paused, “Almost one in the morning,” It was Lily my mom’s friend I recognized her voice when she spoke the second time.
“Pleaseeeeee?” Sydney begged.
This was useless I was not going to see her again, clearly. This whole trip to California had been a waste of time.
“Alright fine,” Lily said, sounding annoyed.
As we walked down to where the car was parked, Sydney hooked elbows with me so that I didn’t have to use my cane and lead the way to the car. It was only about a tan minute drive and I knew the address by heart, she lived right by the bay.
I didn’t know what I was going to say, or how I was even supposed to say what I wanted to say, I had never told a girl I liked them before, and especially not one like her. We’d never meant for it to be more than a hook up. She didn’t want to take things slow, and I didn’t either, and then we started talking, and it was lit every word she said made me like her more, like I could see her standing in front of me, and telling me about her dreams, and her future.
“Go get her,” Sydney said as she walked me up to the door. She was used to my uselessness I assumed. She put my hand in hers and showed me where the door was to the house she lived in.
“Hello?” her sweet voice filled my ears. “Alex,” She sounded surprised, “W-What are you doing here?”
“Do you want to walk with me?” I asked, even though that was a ridiculous idea, I didn’t been know where I had been going with that.
“Sure,” and she did the same as my sister had done earlier hooking elbows with me as we walked.
“I have to tell you something,” I admitted after we walked in silence for a few moments, I imagined Sydney beaming at us, but I couldn’t hear her anywhere around over the sound of my heart beating faster and faster by the second.
“Ok,” she said.
“I like you Aubrey and I know it sounds cliché, and dumb, but…” I let my voice trail off, suddenly I had an idea that if it worked could change my life forever, a dumb idea, a crazy idea. I felt my pockets, listening to the jingling keys inside, and ran my fingers along the keychain until I found it. We had stopped walking in that moment. I felt like we were pretty far away from the house now.
“I-“ I cut her off, pulling my elbow out of hers, as I bent down.
“Alex be careful!” She screeched as I started to wobble backwards, on what I assumed was the dock.
but I couldn’t catch my balance, and soon I found myself in the cold water, throwing my arms out everywhere, and splashing about.
“I….” I popped my head up, “Can’t,” I gasped, “Swim,”
“Grab my hand!” She yelled, the sound was muffled by the water, but I couldn’t grab her arm, in fact I had no idea where it was. My lungs craved air, as the filled with water. They ached for the air they needed, and everything started to fade, the cold water around me was not so cold anymore, and I felt the tips of her fingers brush against mine, as I sunk into the half moon bay.
