Before My Withering [枯萎之前]

Chapter 13

[Are you satisfied? let's not lie]

Pain.

Endless pain.

I couldn't tell how many wounds there were. It's like my whole body has been chopped up. It hurts everywhere.

The mere act of opening my eyes took a lot of energy, and I had to squint again after opening my eyes from not seeing the light for a long time.

The ceiling was white. The quilt and bed sheets were also white.

If it wasn't for the hanging bottle dripping liquid in my hand, it was so white that I thought I was really in heaven.

Everything before me was blurry. I turned my head and saw a vague figure on the sofa at the other end of the room.

"Qi Shu...?"

The man got up and walked over. Not Qi Shu.

It was Zhou Chen.

Did Zhou Chen save me?

I tried to remember what happened that day, but as soon as I used my brain, my head would throb badly.

"Finally, you're awake."

Zhou Chen's sigh was very soft, but I could hear pity in it.

After that, he called doctors and nurses to film and draw blood. Several people fiddled me around, examining me carefully from the inside out.

When the two of us were left alone in the room again, more than an hour had already passed.

I was much more sober. Just now when my medication was changed, I realized that I had a not-so-shallow wound on my forehead. I had three stitches, which would probably leave a scar.

"It's okay, you're still good-looking." Zhou Chen reassured me at the time.

He didn't know I hated those two words.

――These two words belong to those dainty omegas. Once they're evaluated as beautiful, they seem to become a commodity for sale.

I wasn't.

But I couldn't correct him for now.

After the doctors and nurses left, Zhou Chen sat on the edge of the bed and was silent for a long time, saying softly that he was sorry.

I was confused, why would he apologize?

"I'm sorry I didn't get to keep your baby. When I found you, you were lying in a pool of blood, your genital atrium was ruptured, and the baby could no longer be saved...."

What do you mean? I don't understand.

The child was.... gone? How could it be gone?

I was just sleeping...

Was it because of the impact that day, or because of Qi Shu's kick on my stomach?

Why didn't I feel anything wrong at that time? Or was it that the bloody smell I caught whiff before I fainted was from my child?

I dare not bow my head. I know that no matter whether there was or not, you wouldn't be able to see a fetus that's less than two months old. I still didn't dare look.

There was only one thought left in my head――Qi Shu and I, together, had killed our child.

"...Don't do that." A hand suddenly seized my hand.

Only then did I notice that my nails were embedded in my flesh because I was pressing too hard.

"You lied to me, didn't you?" I grabbed Zhou Chen's hand, like it was the final straw for survival.