Before My Withering [枯萎之前]

Chapter 28

[Adoring you fuzzily, pretend it's high tide caused by the storm]

I wanted to tell Zhou Chen that I am by no means an innocent person.

Even though Qi Shu is cold-blooded, I'd been with him for four years and I know what kind of expression and tone could touch him the most.

I deliberately went on a hunger strike and stopped taking medicine, making myself miserable day by day. He couldn't resist my tearful entreaty and begging, so I only showed it to him when I was 'sober'.

I placed my notebook at the bedside and was blown open by the wind, revealing the character '周' written and crossed out on the first page.

I put on his big shirt so that when he wanted to hug me and looked down, he'd see the scar on my collarbone.

I took a final gamble with my life, and fortunately, it paid off.

Who let his heart be moved, exposing his weakness.

He deserved to be deceived.

I even went so far as to deceive Zhou Chen.

I very much knew that the more miserable I was, the more he'd hate Qi Shu when he sees me, and the less likely he would let go of me again.

When in reality, Qi Shu never laid a finger on me. Instead, he watched over me day and night and tried his best to coax me to eat and sleep.

ーーZhou Chen wouldn't know of these days. He would just think that Qi Shu tortured me like this again.

I was afraid that Zhou Chen would see through my little trick, yet I was also afraid that he wouldn't see through it.

I hope that in his mind I would always be an innocent person, worthy of sympathy and love. I also hope that he would recognize my not-so-good nature and still be willing to treat me this way.

I was torn for a long time, but decided to hide the lie for the time being.

I just didn't have enough confidence that he'd accept all of me.

It's just that I went too far this time, and I got retribution.

The effect of stopping my meds arbitrarily was that it destroyed Zhou Chen's months of hard work, and I became even more broken than before. If Qi Shu had been cruel enough to detain me for a few more days, I might have really died.

The weather was warm. Zhou Chen installed a couple hanging chair in the courtyard. It's very comfortable to nest on it and bask in the sun.

Today, I languidly fell asleep while sunbathing. Dazed, I felt someone had covered my body with something, and when I opened my eyes, I saw Zhou Chen.

The hanging chair was like a giant cocoon. I eased in and he sat down.

"It's time to take your medicine." He said.

I feel guilty. I obey him these days, no matter how bitter the medicine was, I'd swallow it without changing my face.

He was pleased that I cherished my life, but he didn't know that I had a guilty conscience.

It was because I had just woken up that I suddenly wanted to be cheeky and asked, "Do you have cream soufflu? I won't eat without it."

——The chef jiejie did it yesterday. It was light, sweet and soft and when you bite it, it was like a cloud melting in your mouth. I know she didn't do it today.

Zhou Chen narrowed his eyes, as if he had seen through my mind. At that moment, his expression seemed to say, "It's only been a few days and you're not behaving anymore?"