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someone asked me once in an interview
"How did you know you were trans?"
"How'd you figure everything out?"
id tell them
"oh i just knew, it was a feeling"
"i just slowly walked through it, step by step"
but
if i wasn't recorded
and there wasnt threat of anything
id say about how much i toiled for years just trying to figure out who i am
and that there wasnt a special place marked in my brain marked "gender"
first it was just a matter of being unhappy as a boy, then it was being non binary, and not understanding my feminine feelings
and even then, i was in denial, and scared to do anything more
but here i am
ive sorted everything
through small, helpful pressure, finding a name i love, and talking to people just like me, as well as working in validation
and that's the story no one will ever hear

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