Heartless love

9.

anubhav's mind : Hume itna afsos kyu horaha hai ye sonchkar ke humara aur haseenaji ka rishta, hum dono ka saath sirf mission khatam hone tak rahega... kyu humara dil unhe divorce nahi dene ko kehraha hai kyu hum unka saath humesha humesha ke liye chahte hai.... Humari puri zindagi hum shadi, pyaar se dur bhagte rahe aur haseenaji se pehli mulakat mai hi hum unke pyaar mai pagal hgye aur ab hum unhe mission khatam hone ke baad divorce bhi nahi dena chahte ...

  Nahi anubhav tum apne dil ko unse pyaar krne se toh nahi rok paye par ab tumhe iss dil ko rokna hi hoga aur mission khatam hone ke baad unhe divorce dena hi hoga... Tumne apni puri zindagi sirf apne desh se pyaar kiya hai aur sirf desh ke liye jiya hai aur agge bhi tumhe sirf desh se hi pyaar krna hai aur desh ke liye hi jeena hai aur kuch nahi... Ab tumhe sab bhulna hoga iss dil ko pattar banana hoga ab tumhare andar sirf aur sirf desh ke liye pyaar hona chahiye aur kisi ke liye nahi.. iss dil mai jisme sirf aur sirf haseenaji basti hai ab iss dil ko pattar banana hoga aur iske ke liye tumhe jo krna pade tumhe wo krna hi hoga...

pehle jese iss dil mai sirf desh ke liye pyaar tha tumhe phirse iss dil mai sirf aur sirf desh ke liye pyaar lana hoga..  chahe iske liye tumhe jo krna pade wo tum karoge kyuke hj ke liye wese hi humare dil mai har pal pyaar badhta hi rehta hai aur ab toh hume unhi ke saath rehna hai har pal, aise mai toh humare liye unke pyaar mai bohttt musqil hojayega unhe mission khatam hone ke baad divorce dena ...

nahiii nahii hume kuch bhi krke iss dil ko rokna hoga, hume unse pyaar bhulna hi hoga ...  hum humesha se sirf desh se pyaar krte the, hai, aur humesha sirf desh se hi pyaar karenge... aur iss baat ko qayam rakhne ke liye hum kuch bhi karenge...

             Haseena's mind : bhale hi hum ye shadi nahi krna chahte the aur mission khatam hone ke baad ye shaddi khatam hi krna hai par mission ke liye jude iss rishte ko hum apni puri zimmedari aur farz se nibhayenge... aur ye mission successful hone ke baad ye rishta bhi khatam hojayega toh humara phirse sirf aur sirf apne iss desh se rishta rahega jo hum humesha chahte the, chahte hai aur humesha yehi chahte rahenge... kyuke hum sirf desh se pyaar krte hai aur apni akhri sans tak sirf desh se pyaar karenge aur desh ke liye hi jiyenge humesha ...

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             Anubhav when he has always decided to only live & love his nation, is deeply and trulyy fallen in love with haseena intensely & now has decided to do anything so that he could forget his love for her & again only love his country....

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Haseena who has no love feelings for anubhav has decided to keep this  relationship with all her responsibility and duty till the mission gets successful and then end this relationship and after the end off this relationship she will again only keep her relationship with her nation with all her responsibility and duty same as she used to ....

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          So after our anuseena got married in the court thana members left happily for thana leaving the newly married couple alone to spend some time with eachother as they don't know this marriage is just for mission ... After they left anuseena left for ib office as they were called their to come after they get married.. so they went their and they all started discussing about the further planning...

        And then their whole time passed in that meeting only it got late night and in the end of the meeting they were strictly said to act like happily married husband and wife infront of every one and also specially near and outside of anubhav's house as the criminals would keep special eye near anubhav's house after hearing abt their marriage news... so that department's whole plan does not come in danger....

After the meeting got ended they both came out and anubhav said..

as : chaliye hum dono pehle apke ghar chalke apka sara saman lelete hai phir humare ghar chale jayenge..

hm : sir ap kyu takleef lenge ap apne ghar araam se jaiye hum apna sara saman lekar pahunchte hai thodi der mai.

as smilingly: nahi nahi hj isme takleef kesi ap humari wife h...[and then he realised what he was going to say, being lost in her love and stopped]...frustrated} hume koi shauk hai bhi nahi ye takleef lene ka par shayed apne andar theek se suna nahi hume strictly kya kaha gaya hai hum dono ko bahar happily married couple ki tarah rehna hai toh agar ap akele apna saman lene jaiyengi toh logo ko shak nahi hoga .. pati ne pehle hi din patni ko akele saman lane ke liye chod diya... isliye humne kaha..

hm felt hurt by his harsh behaviour, words but she understood that obviously this marriage is forced on them ,he obviously is not happy thats why he is frustrated but she dont know the reality that he is deeply in love with her and the fact that he is feeling peace and happy is making him frustrated on himself ..though haseena is the one who is actually forced into this marriage..acted calm and calmly said without depicting any anger ,unhappiness ,rudeness even after by hearing his harsh words :ji sir humne sab dhyan se suna hai par hum toh bass isliye keh rahe the kyuke raat bohtt ho chuki hai wese bhi sab already so gaye honge toh kisi ko kuch pata nahi chalega..

as : phir bhi hum koi risk nahi le sakte isliye ab chaliye jaldi...

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             Anubhav loves haseena and would never thought of talking with her like this but his frustration on himself that how can he fall in love with haseena and how can he be happy to get married with her and how can he feel  that he never wants to leave & divorce her even after the mission.. and all this is driving him crazyy and he started feeling like he is betraying his nation by falling in love with haseena and he never wanted to divide his love he always wanted to love only and only his nation but after seeing haseena for the first time his love got divided between haseena and his nation...

         And all this thoughts started making him frustrated & still now also when ever he sees haseena he gets lost in her love and after trying a lot to stop loving her he is not able to.. this made him moree frustrated and now his anger & frustration on himself for loving haseena has increased to another level and now unknowingly it is coming out on haseena...