Heartless love

11.

as : ye hum kya kr rahe the, apne kaam ko lekar hum aise laparwa kese hosakte hai, subah se hum hj ke khayalo mai hai, unke haath ka lunch khane ke liye betab horahe the aur duty hrs khatam hone ka besabri se intezaar kr rahe the, taki hum unse jaldi mil paye... aur unke pyaar mai hum itna kho gaye ke apne kaam ke prati pratishta ko bhul gaye.... nahi anubhav tum boht galat kr rahe ho... tumhare andar unke liye iss beintehaa pyaar ko tumhe rokna hi hoga, ye sab tumhe  rokna hi hoga....

And then later he went to pick haseena late... he was still frustrated only & his all anger would blunt out on haseena if she would have asked anything about why was he late, or  if she would have only say that atleast he could have inform her by calling but she didn't ask or said anything ...

as cold voice : ap puchengi nahi hum late kyu aaye? aur apko inform tak kyu nahi kiya..!

hm in her sweet voice calmly said & gave a understanding smile : ap kaam mai busy hgye the honge..

anubhav's all anger & frustration vanished in  no seconds and he calmly hummed & felt that no matter how hard he try there is not a single reason to hate haseena...

Later they reached home...

haseena was in wardrobe removing her clothes from her suitcase going to get fresh & she got a call and anubhav was sitting on the bed trying to focus on his phone but he wasn't able to as he was busy in secretly adoring haseena..

hm on call while taking her clothes out : jai hind, ji kahiye sneha..(thana member)
nahi nahi bass dinner banana hai usme kya buzy ap kahiye apne kyu call kiya tha.?
arre nai nai ap pareshan mat hoiye hum sab sambhal lenge ap befikar hojaiye...
ji toh theek hai hum rakhte hai phir.. jai hind..

Anubhav heard everything & thought how good & kind she is, whatever maybe be the problem she never let anyone take any tension & takes all responsibility on herself getting all the tension & troubles... and like these only he was thinking about haseena only & then suddenly realized what he was thinking & got frustrated on himself & stopped himself from thinking about her and adoring her ...

After taking the clothes she went to get fresh as washroom and wardrobe were near only... After getting fresh she came in room & was moving towards the door to go downstairs for cooking dinner... Anubhav kmew if he would look towards her he would be lost in her & wouldn't be able to say, so while looking in his phone he said,

as cold voice : ap humara khana humare room mai hi dedijiyega..

hm does not love him or neither she has started liking him so obviously she did not expected loving behaviour as they are forced in this marriage but neither she expected this cold & harsh behavior... she feels bad & hurt by his behaviour towards her.. but as she never expresses how she feels, she just hides her pain from everyone always , so now also she did not let anyone know how she felt 🥺 and calmly: ji sir... and left..

Later she cooked food & went to serve him the food tray and then came back downstairs.. and after coming down she was feeling bad & hurt she did not felt eating anything because she had thought that now for atleast till this marriage gets over she would not have to eat alone as always...

      she would always eat alone and sometimes when she would be having work she doesn't like to waste her time in eating and whenever she wouldn't feel to eat she used to sleep without having food... so now also she started working on laptop after giving him everything that he must be needed .... she got so much engrossed in work, later she realized & immediately went towards his room to ask if he needs anything else, but as she entered she saw anubhav has already eaten & has slept uncomfortably while working on  laptop..

hm : arre sir toh so gaye par ye aise soyenge toh inhe neck ya back mai pain hoskta hai..

So haseena moved towards him & made him lie comfortably and covered him with the quilt and then picked the tray and moved towards the door & closed the lights & left the room closing the door..

It was not like she was falling in love with anubhav.. she was  always a very caring person towards everyone and more to it, she has also decided to respect this relationship with all her means till the mission gets over and they get divorced...

Later like these days passed, haseena sleeping on couch, making breakfast for him, packing lunches for both of them, thana work, mission work then coming back home and cooking dinner for both of them and even after staying days together in the same house ,still they both did not have even one meal together...

And as many days passed haseena thought & said..

hm : sir abhi kafi din bhi hgye hai humari shaddi ko ab koi kuch nahi sonchega iss bare mai.. toh hume lagta hai ab apko hume thane lane aur lekar jane ki takleef nahi leni chahiye...

as : arre isme takleef kesi humein acha... ( hum kyu nahi rok pate khud ko haseenaji se pyaar krne se... kya bolne jarahe the hum ye jante howe bhi ke ye shadi sirf mission ke liye ki gayi hai..) aa... jii.. jii hj theek hai..

And then some more days passed and now they even started to come and go alone..

So like these also many days passed... And there is not even a single little reason to hate haseena, so it was getting very hard for anubhav to stop loving haseena and he was getting more & more frustrated day by day that the person who did the most dangerous & life risking missions is not able to do a small task of forgetting his love for her... he did not wanted his love to be divided, he only wanted to love his nation...

And because of his increasing love for her, his anger and frustration also increased & his behavior unknowingly started to become more cold towards her but still she being the most calm, good, kind and sweet nature person did not reacted same as his behavior and instead reacted calmly and this was making him love her even more and loving her moreee made him more angryy & rude towards her though haseena was  not in love with him neither she started to have feelings for him nor she started to like him, he was still just a senior officer for her... But his behaviour was hurting haseena but she was hiding how badly hurt she was feeling... And still all this did not changed her kind and calm behavior towards him...