My Bully | lashton a.u

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Ashton

I could feel the bile rising in my throat as I looked through all the crap on Facebook.

It's all over the place!

I have no idea how this happened, Luke kissed me in a dark movie theatre, Calum had to be like right behind us to even get this picture.

Literally everyone from our school has reposted the picture and commented rude things.

You're so nasty, ew. Fucking fags.

It's Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve!

God hates you!!

QUEER

Ashton, you're an abomination to the human society. Luke's just screwing with you, haha LOSER. Go kill yourself!

GAY IS NOT OKAY!

Tears spilled down my face as I read all the hateful things people I've known since year 1, people I used to be friends with, were saying.

Why am I even here? Maybe they're right, maybe God does hate me and maybe I don't belong here.

I deleted all my social media and closed my laptop slowly.

"What have you done, you idiot." I whispered to myself.

I couldn't bring myself to talk to Luke even though he was blowing up my phone with texts and calls. I know I shouldn't ignore him. But I just can't deal with all this right now. It's too much.

I ran my fingers through my already messy hair and thought about it all.

I'm such a failure. I couldn't kill myself. They're right, I am nasty, and an insult to the entire human race. I shouldn't be here.

"You're so pathetic!" Lauren yelled, bursting into my room.

"You're ruining my life! As well as Harry's, to! Ashton, you're putting shame on our entire family!" She sobbed.

Her makeup was running down her face, and her iPhone was in her hand.

"Lauren-" I tried to respond but she just held up her hand.

"Shut up! I don't want to fucking hear it. You're disgusting. Everyone's turning their backs on you. Luke doesn't love you, he never will. Just leave. Go. No one wants you here."

Her words were dripping with venom and hate.

"You can't even succeed in killing yourself." She hissed before walking out of my room and slamming the door.

She's right. You're a pathetic little queer that doesn't belong here. My conscious told me.

I scrambled to my closet and pulled out the box I had hidden so long ago.

Inside lie everything I needed. Blades. Pills. A rope. A gun. My suicide note.

Quickly, not looking at anything he had sent me, I sent a text to Luke.

To Luke:

Can't do this anymore. Goodbye x

I swallowed the pills dry and took the blades in my hand.

I dug them into my skin and dragged them up my arms, vertically. For results.

My vision became hazy, the room started spinning. My eyes locked on the blood seeping out of my wounds. It didn't hurt. I was just strangely aware of a sense of satisfaction.

This is what I've wanted for a very long time. It's been a long time coming.

Just as my world went black, someone burst into my room. I was lifted up and carried away. Then I slipped away.

I woke up with machines all around me. I was alone. It was horribly cold. I couldn't remember exactly what happened but judging by the bandages on my arms and the pain in my gut, I knew I fucked up pretty bad this time.

A nurse came into my room and started checking me over. She took my pulse, listened to my heart and checked the bandages. "Does it hurt anywhere?" She asked.

I nodded. "My kidney." She nodded curtly and left me alone. Minutes later she returned with a doctor.

"Hello Ashton, I am Dr. Garcia. What seems to be the problem?"

"Pain in my kidney."

"Ah, yes. You're bound to feel some discomfort throughout your digestive track, kidneys and appendix. This is because you swallowed quite a lot of prescription pills. Don't worry, you'll be quite alright." He explained.

"Where is my family?" I asked next. His expression shifted into something that can only be described as discomfort.

"They are not here. They have not come to see you."

"How long have I been here?"

The doctor looked at me for a while before sighing and looking away.

"You've been here for three days, Ashton."

WHAAAA???!!!

Poor Ashton!!

Omg Lauren is MEAN

Sorry again, long time no update :(

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Sorry if this is really shitty quality, it's almost midnight rn and I'm exhausted, no time to edit

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