We're Each Other's Querencia

Chapter 8

It's already past 10 o'clock and the Latina still hasn't come out of the bathroom. Arizona was chewing her nails as she walked back and fourth in their bedroom with keys on her hands before deciding to check on her wife. She knocked before peeping only her head inside, she saw Callie sitting and leaning beside the bathtub. "Hey, did you sleep here on the bathroom floor-" She cut off herself as her eyes widened and ramming inside to her knees as she apply force on the side of Callie's stomach. "W-w-w-what happened?!!" she exclaimed as she searched the floor for the sharp object, her eyebrows drew together as she saw the blade in her wife's palm. "Oh my-Calliope, you cut yourself?! oh baby-"she looked at her wife's heavy eyes. "Come on, let's get you to the hospital" she said as she tried to stand them both up but the other woman just chuckle. "We've been here before you know, you sitting on a pool of your own urine. The only difference is that mine was blood." Callie winced at the pain as she forced herself up, letting the blonde help her. By the time that they arrived at the hospital, she couldn't keep her eyes open anymore, so she gave in. Succumbing to exhaustion as the sounds around here faded.

"She really lost a lot of blood, Arizona and it looks like she's been starving herself and replacing food with alcohol." Owen sighed as he placed her hands at the blonde's shoulder for some comfort. Tears rolled down Arizona's cheeks as she hold her wife's cold hands, warming it with hers. "Oh, Calliope."

Hours gone by, Callie scrunched her face as the bright lights blinded her eyes. She turned her head and saw the sleeping blonde on a single sofa. Arms are crossed and her feet is up. She just watched her sleeping wife as the waters on her tear ducks escaped. She does not recognize herself anymore. Droopy blue eyes met hers as the blonde stood up and slowly approached her, "hey..." the woman standing on her side breathed, she doesn't have any make-up on, just beautiful bare face. "How are you feeling?" she continued but Callie remained silent. She's ashamed of what she's done to herself, what's worse was the blonde must have seen already the scars on her belly. Great, now she made herself looked more horrible! Callie thought to herself. She turned herself to the other side of the bed, turning her back on the blonde and her heart broke when she heard the other women sniffing as she cry. "I picked Sofia from Meredith's, she's in day care now so you don't have to worry. J-just tell me when you want to see her, ok?" Callie answered with silence as more tears stained her pillows as she closed her eyes and sleep the pain again. 

"You have to forgive her and yourself, Callie" The Latina who's been sitting at the edge of the rooftop widened her eyes at the person who appeared out of nowhere, "Mark!" she exclaimed as she stood up and run to her best friend with arms in the air. "Hey there, Cals" he said as they both hugged each other tightly, not ever wanting to let go again. She must be dreaming, Callie thought to herself. She don't ever want to wake up from this dream, ever again. "No, you have to wake up eventually because our daughter is waiting for you." Mark said as she hold her both shoulders. "Weird, you can heard my thoughts?" she asked with quizzing look and the man in front of her just winked. "Stop blaming yourself, Callie. Stop torturing yourself. You know she regrets it and you know that you are the one she really love." Mark said as they both sat down as  the edge of the building, dangling their feet as the watched the sun sets. Callie exhaled deeply as she glanced at him, "Love? you mean, love is forgetting that she has a wife and a daughter, a family to come home to??" she chuckled but Marked rolled his eyes as her. "I made mistakes, you made yours. Everybody made mistakes, Callie. No one's perfect, even angels made their mistakes" Callie raised both her eyebrows shooting Mark with a look. "What I'm saying is You have to love a person enough to forgive them, to pursue healing, love and start all over." Mark sighed as she put her arms around her best friend and pull her closer while Callie rest her head in his shoulders. "People make mistakes, even those we love. Don't let that be the reason you give up on somebody. Sometimes good people make bad choices. It doesn't mean that they're bad, it means they're humans." He expressed as Callie wiped her tears and chuckled, "Geez, what did death do to my man whore best friend! I miss you!!" She said as she hugged Mark again, not wanting to let go. "Me too, Cals. Give Sofia a kiss for me, ok? " Callie bobbed her head as Mark kiss her forehead. "And remember, you are perfect ok? you don't have to change anything in yourself! MY BEST FRIEND IS PERFECTLY HOT!" he shouted in the air as Callie closed her eyes, curling down her lips. Missing the presence of her best friend. 

When Callie opened her eyes, she tried to shift her body but there is someone who's hugging her from behind, the blonde removed her arms to let her wife turned around and face her. "Sorry, you were whimpering and talking to your sleep so..." she is about to remove the blanket but Callie stop her and held her hand. "Stay..." she whispered hoarsely. Arizona put her arms around her wife, letting her rest her head in her shoulder. "I'm sorry..." Callie started, "I-It's just that-after seeing her, I-I thought-I felt like it's-it's me you didn't like. That-that maybe you got sick at-at me, at the way I look so..." she cried while Arizona wiped her tears. "No. No, Callie. I'm sorry ok? I'm sorry for breaking your trust, for-for betraying your heart. I am so sorry that you felt this way, ok? You are perfect. Listen to me, You are beautiful. No women can be as beautiful as my wife, okay? I love you. I love you just the way you are." she said brushing her thumbs on her cheeks as they both gasp in sobbing. Arizona cleared Callie's face from the hair on her face as she slowly take her hands, fitting it with hers. "Now, we are going to take things slow. We will start over, ok?" She said and her wife nodded as the blonde rest her head on Callie's. "I love you, My Calliope" She added as she kiss her wife's temple.