Saverio

Part 27 - Nightmare

HONOR MAEVE

the ring is beautiful.

It's a large rectangle diamond ring with two halos that wrap around.

It's my ring.

Nobody else's.

Mine.

It's adorable. I can't believe I'm getting married.

My baby girl is going to have a dad. That's the most important thing to me. That she has two parents in her life.

I know it's not Saverio but I just want her to be happy.

I want to be happy.

Alec put a lot of thought into this proposal. The musicians and candles were my favourite part.

I have thought about it in the past... me and Alec getting married.

I always denied it would ever happen, that we just won't work out in the end. That I love Saverio.

But Saverio dead.

So it's time for me to move on, and what better than to marry the person I love most in this world.

I'm still grieving his death but it's getting easier the more days go on.

My scars are now turning white. Did I go to far?

They're all over my body, but Alec shows no care about that and says I am always beautiful.

He does know how to work his words.

The only thing that still bothers me about mine and Alec's relationship is the lack of sex.

We haven't had any of it. Ever.

It's makes me panic. Worry.

So when the chance comes I'll ask him about it. I'm in need of his body right now.

The desperation is killing me.

I haven't had sex with anyone in over ten months.

Why won't he do this with me.

I pick Sav up, placing her into her crib for nap time.

Both I and Alec made his old office into a bedroom for Sav.

It's shaded in a cream colour but her closet is filled with pink.

He never once doubted it would be a girl. He felt he always knew.

He was right.

Honestly, I'm jealous of Sav in some aspects. Her room is looking so much better than anything I've ever had before, and I'm almost twenty two.

My birthday is next week, but I don't want to inform Alec as I've never really celebrated my birthday since my mom died.

Everything when with her.

Besides twenty two isn't that big of a deal. It's just an age.

I turn the baby monitor on then shut the bedroom door behind me.

I walk down the stairs, heading towards the kitchen were I grab a plate of left over pizza from last night.

It's cold but that's how I prefer it. I sit down at the island and begin eating at it when I then feel warm hands gently trike the back of my neck.

The soft and gentleness soothes me and I find comfort in that.

They hug me from behind, kissing me on the side of my forehead.