Hitorijime My Hero

Change

When I was a kid, everything was fully based on logic, nothing more, nothing less. The partners I had never lasted long before I wasn't invested, but now it's different. Here I am in a dressing room with a suit on, getting ready to marry the love of my life in four months. If someone had told me this while in college I would be standing here today, looking myself in the mirror, preparing for my wedding, I would've thought you were lying. It's always been logic, emotions were something I never understood. Maybe that's why it took me so long to confess, because I couldn't put it to words and in all fairness, my actions weren't exactly direct. However, none of that matters anymore, because it's come to the conclusion I've wanted for years. In four months, I'll be married to my one and only. Masahiro has his suit as well. All I know is that it's white, since neither him, Mom, or Kensuke will tell me anything else about it.

I sit at my desk and finish up some work before starting to get ahead on other assignments so I have less to worry about. As the weeks pass by, I can't help but get a bit more nervous. What'll happen after we're married? It's a question that keeps repeating that I try to avoid at all cost. Will anything really change? We already act like a married couple; will it just be a difficult label?

"Kousuke?" I heard my husband to be say as he walked into my office.

"Hey" I replied before we carried on the conversation.

"I finished dinner. I tried calling for you but you didn't hear me, so I came to get you myself." He said.

"Sorry, I must've gotten lost in thought"

"Is something wrong?"

"Not at all"

"But you never miss me calling for you. Tell me, what's really going on?"

"I'm just overthinking"

"About?"

"What'll happen after the wedding? Will things change between us or will it be nothing more than a change in label? You'll no longer be my boyfriend or fiancé, but my husband."

"Honestly, I don't think anything will really change. Ever since we started dating we've acted like a married couple, remember when you used to call me your wife? Personally, I think the only thing that's going to change is that now it's official."

I stand up from my desk and hug him, he always knows what to say. I swear on my life I will protect him at all cost.

"I never knew I could ever love anything or anyone as much as I love you. It terrifies me, because if anything were to happen to you, I would never forgive myself." I'm crying at this point, I don't even remember the last time I cried.

Masahiro wraps his arms around me and slowly rubs my back.

"I love you too, I love you Kousuke. Everything is going to work out; you're not doing this on your own, I'm right here"

Those words were all I needed to hear, everything will be fine, as long as he's by my side.

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Hi everyone! I was holding onto this chapter for a bit because I wanted to publish it on my birthday. When I went into the chapter at least 100 words were not saved properly and I had to retype. I did however achieve what I wanted to and am posting this on my birthday! I was everyone to take good care of themselves and drink plenty of water, you can consider it as a gift for me. Anyway, stay happy and healthy!

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