Hitorijime My Hero

Love

We're officially a married couple, but as expected, nothing changed and we both went on with our lives.

I walked into class after being away for around a week due to the wedding and honeymoon. It was a new semester by this time, but because of my major, I had mostly the same professors and some classmates looked familiar. Luckily, I was excused for the most part after telling my professors about my absence and the reason behind it.

"Welcome back Setagawa" my professor said as I took my usual seat.

"Good morning Sensei"

"How was the wedding?" He asked.

My eyes widened as my classmates turned to look at me.

"It was nice..." I said, clearly getting uncomfortable with the situation.

"Good to hear" he replied, ending the conversation.

It's not that I'm ashamed of my marriage, or my now husband. It's the fact that I'm not sure how others will take to a same sex married couple. While I was talking to my professors about my wedding, I never clarified what the gender of my partner was out of nervousness. I know Kousuke doesn't care, hell he'd shout it from the rooftops, but I'm still nervous. If he's not with me at the moment, I don't want to get into that kind of discussion. Although I'm not sure, it could be from the event from about a year ago. I said something and then the domino effect happened. I also don't want to make life more difficult for Kousuke; he says he quit his job because he wanted to get a new one closer to my campus, but I doubt that's the only reason. After the news about him being bisexual got released to the school, students would always ask him about it. He had no problem with them asking questions, but it was more so the way they would ask and that they believed they deserved an answer to everything even after he had informed them that he was not comfortable with sharing information about his personal life to that extent. A fresh start was needed for both of us.

My classes go on as normal and I spend the time I have in between lectures to get some of my work done.

*One New Message From:
Kou ❤️*

Thanks for the lunch today! My students were glad to have me back, but I miss you. Have a good day! I love you! ❤️

I smile at my phone and chuckle a bit, he always says the cheesiest things, but I love it.

*Outgoing Message*

I love you too 💕

It might look simple for people to say they love each other, but that's not always true. It took me a while, and even after I started, I still had trouble. Those three little words, those eight letters, was something I lacked as a child. I don't remember my mom saying it and I know my dad didn't. Who else would've told me? For the longest time I had no idea was 'love' actually was. When Kousuke said he loved me, I was confused. How can he tell the difference between love and admiration? What does it feel like to love someone? I loved my mom, but this was a different kind of love, the romantic kind. Even if I had a crush in the past, I probably wouldn't have been able to tell that it was romantic. Unconditional affection and love was something I unknowingly wanted and lacked. To be loved by someone who sees you at your best and worst is something out of a fairytale. For once in my life, I've found someone who'll love me no matter what.