i love her, but i'm a girl [tagalog] (on going)

Chapter III.

ASHLEY POV

                I hear Kelly giggles, yah that’s Kelly one of my fellow cheerleader. Just like me, gay/lesbian din siya but she’s out to the squad means the whole squad is aware that she was Gay. I remember nung bata ako pangarap ko talagang maging cheerleader, I was on my sophomore year nung nag decide ako na mag audition and luckily nakapasok. First my Mom suggest that I need to tell them that im Gay, she thinks hiding the real me is not fair in order to reach my dreams. Tama nga naman pano nga ako magiging masaya kung may tinatago naman ako? Pero wala I don’t listen to her, I still choose to live with a lie. Kasi tingnan mo naisip ko, kung malaman nila na im Gay? Im sure it will freak them out, hello? Group kaya to ng mga hot girls in the campus and then may lesbian? Tapos idagdag mo pa na we all have the same locker room so it only means na maliligo at magbibihis kami ng sabay sabay, and pag nalaman nila na im Gay it will bring awkward feeling to everyone iisipin nila sisilipan ko sila kahit hindi o wala naman akong balak gawin yun. Oa na kung oa pero that’s the reality, and reality bites.

                Then an accident happened, kaylangan namin ng bagong cheerleader in the middle of school year, dun na sumali si Kelly. Umpisa palang sinabi niya na, na she’s gay, na kung hindi sila open sa ganung idea hindi nalang siya mag aauditioned. And then ok lang sa kanila, nakapasok si Kelly sa squad I thought it will freak them out but it doesn’t happen actually they cool about that. The awkward feeling in the shower room that I imagined and expected? Wala. How I wish I am Kelly I have all her courage to show the real me, but im not. Im just Ashley who pretend in able to be accepted.

                Before the Championship, nung napansin ko na wala naman pala silang against sa mga lesbian naisip ko na mag came out na sa squad since mga kaibigan ko na sila matatanggap na nila siguro ako? But then Aiden enter the picture and ask me about the deal, he is my friend since elementary, he’s been there all the time when I need him, I can’t turn him down. Lalo na ngayon na namomoblema siya dahil may nakakita daw sakanya with a guy na sweet at sinumbong siya sa Dad niya, he need someone na mapapakilala niyang girlfriend niya para mawala na yung speculations na he’s gay. It seem like I don’t have a choice, yung akala ko na pag preretend lang namin ni Aiden sa Family niya, ay kumalat sa buong school, nalaman ng lahat na were together na yung hottest guy sa basketball team ay may gf na, hindi naman naming pwede bawiin lahat ng kumalat sa school because masisira ang lahat and now? I’m leaving with a lie. I’m stuck with a lie.

                “She’s Cute” narinig kong sabi ni Kelly. May nakita nanaman siguro siyang pwedeng gawing girlfriend, may pag ka player kasi si Kelly and aware ang buong squad dun. Inikot ko yung mata ko sa buong gym para makita kung sino yung pinag uusapan nila. And then I see her, yung babaeng kanina pa nakatambay sa utak ko, yung babaeng nabangga ko kanina, yung babaeng first time ko naramdaman ng ganto, si Spencer sabagay hindi nako mag tataka kung lahat nacacaught yung attention because of her I can’t blame her she’s beautiful she was seating in the opposite side of the Gym. “Sorry Girl she’s not into girls” narinig kong sabi nung kausap ni Kelly ka squad din namin “How did you know?” tanong ni Kelly “Look, she’s looking for someone at sa basketball team siya nakatingin so I thik she’s looking for a  guy or her boyfriend maybe?” sabi nung kausap ni Kelly habang tumatawa. Bakit parang nalungkot din ako dun sa narinig ko? Ano naman kung she’s not into girls? As if naman ill do something to get her? “Ahhh Basta, im gonna figure it out soon” sagot ni Kelly.        

Im quite sure na interesado si Kelly kay Spencer ganyan kasi siya, pag may trill mas lalo siyang nag eenjoy. I remember last time? She has a crush on a new girl, sabi nila straight daw yun means lalaki lang ang gusto and hindi siya interesado sa same sex pero after a week sila na. Hello? Sino ba ang hindi magkakagusto kay Kelly? She’s Blonde, green eyes, beautiful, sexy, she’s totally hot and she even drive a nice car (dagdag points daw yun) sinong hindi mafafall sakanya kahit anong gender name it kaya niyang icast under her spell lahat pwera lang siguro ako? Hahaha :D im so much hotter than her so pano ako mafafall sakanya. Ayan nanaman ako nagbubuhat ng sariling bangko haha :D I smile a little bit then I hear Madison umpisa nadaw ng practice.

SPENCER POV

                Nandito kami ni Kyla sa isang side ng gym, sa tapat ng basketball tryout since yung other half ng gym is para daw sa practice ng cheerleading yung reason bakit sumama sakin si Kyla. Am I that bad? Kanina pa kasi nagkwekwento si Kyla pero im not paying attention that much, I don’t know why im not in the mood gusto ko na kasi talagang umuwi. And then nag start na yung try out ng Basketball.

                Nilibot ko yung mata ko, to see kung asan si Glen, our eyes met and I mouthed him “Goodluck” and then he reply “No need” “Kapatid mo?” tanong ni Kyla, I nod “Yabang niya no? Actually he’s great in playing basketball, kaya lang sometimes it gets into head kaya nakakainis!.” I responded with one eyebrow raise.

                “Ayan na sila” putol ni Kyla sabay turo, sinundan ko lang yung ng tingin yung tinuro niya, nakita ko yung squad papunta sa other side ng gym. “Alam mo may Lesbian din diyan sa squad, she’s hot and beautiful” kwento ni kyla. Im like *o* sa squad? Meron? Ang gaganda kaya nila parang imposible I said at the back of my mind. “Si Kelly yung nakapink hanging blouse, yung blonde” patuloy niya pa, hinanap ko yung sinabi ni Kyla sa tumpok ng girls na naglalakad papunta sa other side ng gym, tama nga si Kyla she’s beautiful and hot, hindi halata na she’s into girls too sabi ko sa sarili ko.

                And then nakita ko yung babaeng nabangga ko kanina, she’s also one of the squad? Sabagay hindi naman nakakagulat yun, maganda naman kasi siya, muka din naming magaling sumayaw at isa pa hot siya diba nga yun yung sabi nila na lahat daw ng cheerleader dito sa King High is maganda at hot? No doubt kung bakit kasali siya. “Sinong tinitingnan mo?” putol ni Kyla. “Ahhh wala sino siya?” sabay turo sa babaeng nakabangga ko kanina. “Ahhh bakit? Si Ashley yun, Ashley Davies.” “Wala nabangga ko kasi yun kaninang umaga” sagot ko, then she turned to me and give me nakakalokong smile “Huy crush mo no kasi naalala mo pa na siya yung nabangga mo kanina? :D” then tumawa siya “Huy hindi ha?” then naramdaman ko nagblush ako, nakita niya yun kaya mas lalo pakong inasar “Eh bakit ka nag blublush? Hahaha :D huwag ka ng umasa hanggang crush ka nalang” natawa padin siya, wala na im busted so better na tanungin ko nalang siya “Ha? Bakit?” “Straight yan! si Aiden” sabay turo sa lalaking nakaupo sa may mesa na nagjujudge sa mga nagtratry out ng basketball. “yan yung boyfriend niya, team captain ng basketball team. Perfect couple sila kung tawagin pano ba naman she’s hot and he’s hot I think a year nadin silang together at nagdadate” tuloy tuloy na kwento ni Kelly, tumango nalang ako at iniba ang topic. First girl crush ko ganun? Ano ba naman yun? Di ko alam irereact ko, im lesbian I know pero hindi pa ako nag kakagirlfriend at first time din ako magkacrush sa girl kadalasan kasi attracted lang. Kaya ayun, nagwork naman at naiba na yung topic pero mas malala kanina mas hindi ko na maintindihan mga kwento ni Kyla.

                After the tryout, biglang dumaan sa harap namin si Aiden, to cross the other side of the gym. Sinundan ko lang siya ng tingin, tama nga hinala ko papunta siya sa GF niya, he hug her and kiss her sa cheeks then naglakad na sila papunta sa locker room ng gym, tama nga they look good together bagay sila, pero mas maganda sana kung kami ni Ashley yun.