Hate & Love

Infidelity

"Wassup whichu?", I ask Moni as she made her way to the living room couch.

"No Wassup whichu? I've barely been seeing you Mercedes. I get that you have a busy schedule but everybody makes time for those that they care about. And you've been coming to school like 1 day a week. You're going to fail.", Moni retorted.

Here she go.

"I know Moni I'm sorry. I got a lot on my plate & I don't want you surrounded by the business I partake in. I'mma make some more time for you. As for the school shit. I don't really care for that shit right now. Might even get my GED."

"GED, you can't be serious Dee. What are you going to do with a weak ass GED?", I know I pissed her off with that. Her face said it all, but I'm keeping it real.

I haven't even given the idea much thought but thinking about it now, I might actually do it.

"We'll it's better than nothing.", I finally sat down beside her on the couch and stretched my legs over her but she pushed them off.

"Whatever.....my dad got Malissa pregnant", she said lowly.

"For real?", I know she isn't too thrilled about that.

"Yes and of course he had to add that on top of all the other weights on my shoulder. Saying I have to set a good example for my sibling. Like I swear sometimes I feel like if I make one mistake, I'm instantly going to become an disappointment.", she ranted.

"Like I've done everything perfectly yet him and his wife would still find something wrong in what I do. I get that I have set good examples for my sibling. But he just make it feel like I'll always have to be on 100. Maybe sometime I just want to be on 50." She continued.

"I don't know why something as small as this makes me so mad but I guess I'm just tired. I'm tired of being tired." She finished.

"I hear you baby, but maybe you should stop giving a fuck about what they want from you. Just do what you want for yourself. And yeah they prolly won't like it but it don't matter what they like. It's your life Moni.", I said.

Moni's father and his expectations has always been a burden for her. I remember when she used to do certain things to make him happy but he would always find a flaw in what she did rather than simply congratulating her.

I know that really bothers her. As a kid she would always try harder but at some point she realized she was never going to get her congrats. That's when she started acting out but even then she still doesn't get out of control.

"Yeah if only it was that easy.", she says then places herself on top of me. I wrapped my arms around her and placed a kiss on her forehead.

We laid there on the couch watching television until we fell asleep.

...............

I was woken by my phone dinging, Moni had left to go home about an hour ago. Before she left I told her I would do something with her every Thursday and she said that was cool with her. When she left I went back to sleep.

I checked my phone to see messages from Shay.

SHAYDEN 🤎

10:50

Can you bring me something to eat?

Waffle house preferably

11:55

Hello?

I know you not ignoring me. Must be busy with yo boo 🧐. If it's that then say it.