its complicated | c. evans

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iMESSAGES between
JANUARY and NOVA

NOVA:
hey jan

JANUARY:
hey sis what's up!

NOVA:
all good all good
NOVA:
you?

JANUARY:
all good! just grinding trying to
get songs written

NOVA:
um how's that going?

JANUARY:
are you sure everything is good
with you? you never make small
talk like this
JANUARY:
go on spit out whatever you have to
say

NOVA:
ugh fine
NOVA:
what was up with you and chris
going on a date?

JANUARY:
was i not allowed to go out with
him

NOVA:
that wasn't the question

JANUARY:
you're making it seem like it was
crime to go out with him

NOVA:
it's not i just want to know
NOVA:
why are you getting so defensive

JANUARY:
can you blame me it's always the
same with you

NOVA:
don't start

JANUARY:
don't start what? throwing the truth
in your face?

NOVA:
i don't know why i even bother
anymore

JANUARY:
right okay because you definitely
bothered before
JANUARY:
remind me again how long was it
before we decided to remember i
existed

NOVA:
are you serious right now? you're
bringing this up again? you just can't
leave the past where it is

JANUARY:
it's always the same story with you nova
JANUARY:
you avoid me for months on end then
suddenly remember your little sister and
proceed to have a go at me for whatever
'terrible' life decisions im making

NOVA:
don't put this shit on me
NOVA:
this relationship works both ways

JANUARY:
how many times did i contact you?
id be lucky to get a response back

NOVA:
you know what jan i didn't text you
to start an argument

JANUARY:
you caused one anyways

NOVA:
are we ever going to get past
this? are we ever going to just leave
the past

JANUARY:
i don't know nova

NOVA:
it's not my fault our parents split us
up yet you make it out to be like that

JANUARY:
no i dont, i know it's not your fault
but it's your fault for failing to keep
contact with me
JANUARY:
it's your fault for not being a good
enough big sister

NOVA:
i'm done with this conversation

JANUARY:
of course you are you always are
whenever i'm right

NOVA:
goodbye jan

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this was painful to write i'll be honest!