its complicated | c. evans

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INCOMING CALL FROM NOVA
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hi jan

nova? hi

how are you?

i've been better, how are you

i'm okay
i um i wanted to talk to you

...

i know we haven't been on the
best of terms these last few weeks
and i know that's my fault and i guess
i wanted to apologise to you

you guess?

[sigh] i do want to apologise jan
i just don't know how

what is that supposed to mean?

i don't just want to say sorry that
sounds too generic, i've really hurt
you and saying sorry doesn't sound
right

oh

i heard your song by the way

you did?

yeah...i thought it was amazing
the lyrics were...beautiful

thank you nova

it was like i could hear the pain in
your voice and i knew it was about
our relationship

i um i didn't know what to do with my
feelings so i put into a song

it's okay it was really good, it got me
thinking about everything, and how
strained our relationship truly is

yeah i guess so

i really am sorry january, not just for
blowing up at you but with everything
i don't think i realised how bad everything
had gotten until i heard your song

really?

yeah it was like it hit me in the face
how horrible i've been

that wasn't the intention of the song

i know i know but anyways jan what im
saying it that right now where we are i
know it's not the best of places but i
want to work towards fixing that

how can i know your not just saying
this and in a few weeks you'll forget
who i am again?

oh jan, im so sorry for ever making you
feel like that, truly it was never what
i wanted [pause] i love you so much
you know? i missed you so much
when you left with mom
it was like a piece of me left and ive
never been the same and now you're
here and doing so well for yourself...
i'm proud of you jan, proud of you for
never giving up and standing up to me

nova–

hold on, i just- i really am truly sorry
for everything jan and i really want
to make an effort and have you in my
life

[sniffles] you really mean that?

yes jan i do, i mean it this time, i'm
not ruining our relationship anymore

...okay nova, that sounds good

i know it'll be a while before you
can fully trust me but i mean it

okay nova, we'll make it work

i love you january

i love you too nova