Excruciating Love

SEVENTH PART

Seventh Part

Trigger Warning

Hell is being betrayed by a trusted friend. While I was thinking for the best of her, she was thinking for the worst of me. Funny how I could take a bullet for her yet she was the one behind the trigger.

Hindi ako nagkulang sa kaniya, alam ko 'yan. Hindi ako nagkulang na iparamdam sa kaniya na magka-away kami. I want her to see me not as an enemy but a friend, her trusted friend. I want her to see me as someone who loves her even if the world is cruel for her.

Kung... Kung may problema siya sa akin noon, sana kinausap niya ako para hindi kami umabot sa ganito. While I was busy celebrating for our achievement, she was busy playing our fates with her naked fingers. She played with us, stabbing us but acted like she was the one who's bleeding.

I should be mad at her, right? But despite all the cruel things she did, she was still the Hestia I'd always knew.

She treated me as her competitor, her enemy. She silently challenged me, fighting over the academics, given, I understand that part but when she treated me as an enemy just for a dick? Iyon na ang hindi ko maintindihan.

"Zion!" I screamed, tears rolling down on my tears, endlessly.

His head turned over my direction, his gaze were darted at me as I ran towards him, seeking for a warmth and comfort. His eyes were bloodshot, his lips were even quivering as he waited for me until I was already caught inside his arms.

I cried more and more, sobbing loudly due on the agonizing pain caused by this excruciating love.

Hindi ko na kaya, sukong suko na ako. Sunud-sunod na lang. Gustong gusto ko nang magalit sa Diyos dahil sa mga nangyayari pero hindi ko magawa! They said everything happens for a reason but what could be more if we already lose two person!?

I was so mad at Hestia but I'd never wish for her to end up like this, I want her to continue living, to continue going and walking until she was already at the end. I want her to grow, I want her to live without anger and jealousy eating her system.

I met her as a good person. She was just blinded with her insecurities and jealousy.

"Shh..." He rubbed my back when he noticed that I was already screaming in pain, he tightened his embrace, wanting me to feel his presence. "I-It's okay... She's with Titus now.." That just triggered my tears.

Totoo naman. Iyon naman ang gusto niyang mangyari, ang makasama ang anak niya pero hindi dapat sa ganitong paraan! Gusto ko pang... Gusto ko pang masaksihan kung papaano siya unti-unting bababa mula sa itinayo niyang galit.

Napakadami niya pang dapat gawin pero ang daya... It's so unfair! Kung sino pa ang madaming dapat na gawin at may mas rason para manatili, sila pa itong nawawala!

The next thing I knew, nasa loob na ako ng kuwarto ni Cole. Kaagad na napabangon ako mula sa pagkakahiga sa couch, I groaned, nasapo ko kaagad ang ulo ko dahil sa mabigat na pakiramdam, parang hinahati dahil sa sobrang sakit.

I looked around and noticed Zion, nakadukdok siya doon sa gilid ni Cole, hawak-hawak ang kamay nito.

I just stared at them from our distance, isinampa ko ang mga paa sa couch bago isinandal ang likod doon, I hugged my legs, resting my chin on my knees, thinking how cruel the world is. Everything just felt surreal, ang bilis ng mga pangyayari, halos hindi ko mahabol.

Our paths crossed. Our son got into an accident, diagnosed with cerebral edema. Operation. Titus' sudden death. Cole still in comatose after the operation. Hestia's death.

I gasped, naramdaman ko kaagad ang kung anong pumiga sa puso ko. Napatitig ako sa kawalan, iniisip ang mga nangyari. Nakakapagod din pala na saluhin ang mga ibinabato sa'yo. It was like a rock being tossed in my direction, hitting my soft spots.