Lovesickness and its symptoms. | FENGQING MODERN AU - CHEATING FIC

Intensive Care #3

RECAP:
"I wish this was a nightmare, so when i woke up id hurry to hug you, and you were never with a different girl."
That was mu-qings last thought, before he fell asleep, Mu-qing heard Feng-xin call him by the girls name. He teared up and clenched his teeth. "But shes not me.." he cried softly to feng-xin.
Even though he was resting now, his heart was still pounding.
"I wish i could slap you."

PRESENT:

"Are you ready? Do you need help packing anything else?"
Feng-xin asked Mu-qing, Mu-qing shook his head as a reply to say "No.", Theres not much he needs to bring anyway, he lacks power to do most of the activities he enjoys, such as sports, due to his bad bad fever.

"Cough cough." Mu-qing's throat was aching, and he hasnt used the breathing machine yet. Nor his inhaler.
But hes doing it on purpose. Hes been skipping medicine, most of the time. He aims to die early anyway.

The clouds covered the sun's warm shine, and the wind turned calm. The morningdew that was all around their backyard got to Mu-qing, he could smell the fresh grass. He felt okay for awhile.
"Just a couple more months.. you two can love eachother now. And i wont be in the way." He teared up, and said to himself.
He sighed, and stood up to walk for a short while around the house before he leaves for good.

Mu-qing walked over slowly to the hall, just enough so he wouldnt tumble over.
"Aha.. i remember this." He looked at a photo hanged on the hall, it was him and feng-xin when they were frenemies in highschool, mu-qing asked to get it printed after they got engaged, just as a memory.
"All we'd do was curse at eachother and fight, xielian would always have to hurry to cut our arguements off.."

he giggled for a moment, but he couldnt stand the fact he would never be able to go back in time.. hes near the end of the road.
He frowned for a second or two, then proceeded to walk around. Feng-xin came over to check up on him, and he hugged him from the back.

"Are you ready to leave, wo de ai?" Wo de ai meant my love in chinese.
Mu-qing hit his face from the back and glared at him, "You're getting too old for this, stupid."
Feng-xin picked him up again, and like always. Mu-qing cursed rapidly at him, but he ignored it and brought him to the car, it was time to leave.

Mu-qing realized it was time to go, he gulped and squeezed Feng-xin tightly. Although he wanted to die, he was scared of course. But this was bound to happen anyway. theres no going back. He's already skipped medicine too many times, avoided inhaler routines, and only used it whenever he needed to breathe. He's in a critical state.

Wham! The cardoor shut, and they drove off to go to the hospital.
Feng-xin turned on some calming music so that Mu-qing wouldnt feel too nervous, Mu-qing said, "Turn the radio off you dense-head." Fengxin replied, "Just be grateful you choosy f^ck", He said it in a jokingly tone. And Mu-qing caught up to that pretty fast. It was quiet in the car, for the whole ride after that.

They finally arrived, Mu-qing was a little shakey, but a bit of inhaling and exhaling helped a bit.
Feng-xin sensed Mu-qing felt anxious, so he kissed him on the cheek and held his hand to the entrance of the hospital.
Mu-qing looked away when he kissed him. He thought to himself, "I wish you treated only me.. like this." He felt a sudden wave of goosebumps, but they walked off into the entrance anyway.

A security guard approached them first, asked whoever was the patient and asked them to sign up real quick.
Mu-qing was fiddling with his hands, and he was sweating slightly. Whilst Feng-xin was signing up Mu-qing on the paper the guard gave them. The silence was real loud, plus the sky was getting darker.

"Alright, its finished. Lets head in Mu-qing." Feng-xin blankly said, then took Mu-qings hand. "The h3ll? You startled me." Said Mu-qing, since he was busy looking at the sky and fiddling with his hand. Feng-xin just sighed and entered the ICU floor with him. When they got there, Mu-qing clenched his teeth and closed his eyes shut. He was terrified, for sure. He felt like he was bound to get a panic attack.

Feng-xin tried calming him down by holding his hand, but Mu-qing pushed him away with a look of slight disgust.
"Why is he acting like this?" They both thought that to eachother with different meanings. Eventually they got to Mu-qing's Assigned doctor.

Mu-qing tugged on Feng-xins pants, while rubbing his eyes. He was getting a bit teary, but he asked quietly, "Feng-xin.
Are you going to leave me while im here?." With a somewhat sorrow tone. Feng-xin hesitantly replied with a nod. Then he looked away for a moment. "Sigh, is it cause of her.?" Mu-qing muttered. And feng-xin heard it. He replied with, "Pardon? Mr Mu-qing?" He stopped walking for a second.

"Nothing." Mu-qing replied blankly and continued walking, he sprinted a bit so that it wasnt obvious he was starting to cry.
"Agh!-"

"MU-QING?!"
"DOC! HE FELL UNCONSCIOUS!"
"Shit. I shouldnt have let him sprint." Feng-xin whispered to himself, then picked up Mu-qing, The doctor and Feng-xin hurried to their (Mu-qings) ICU room.
An hour later.

"Mm..nh.." Mu-qing uttered as he regained consciousness, he noticed Feng-xin wasnt in the room with him.
He was curious where he had gone, and luckily he was on the first floor, so he could move around and check the exit or entrance.

"Babe, when will you leave him? I want you already.. plus isnt he a pain in the ass?" Mu-qing heard a lady facing Feng-xin say this to him.
Mu-qing overheard again. And this time, while in the hospital? The hospital he'll die in?
"Please.. respect me for two seconds.. " Mu-qing covered his mouth and started hyperventilating while getting teary-eyed.
This was the second time. And this time, right out his unit? Right outside where he'll die?

"Why do you always bring her in while im here?. You two can do as much as you want when im dead." He started to cough out a bit of blood, while he sniffled aggressively, and sobbing quietly while on the floor.
"Please..please..please... i want you for myself.. before i go." Mu-qing grasped for air and started gripping the wall miserably,
he was shivering. "F^ck you Feng-xin." Mu-qing softly said, then fell onto the ground unconsciously

.."Mu-qing?" Feng-xin noticed the noises.

"Shit."

T.B.C