𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝 | 𝐣𝐣𝐤

chapter 30

TODAY'S WALK TO MEGUMI'S

room felt lighter on your body, somehow. you couldn't distract yourself too much but, after a few years living here, you noticed how bright the colors were; from the tall and leafy trees surrounding the cemented pathway to the dorms, as wells as the little flowers at the very roots of them. everything seemed to be prettier than usual or maybe that's how your eyes percieved the world around you. maybe being in love made you see the world from a different perspective.

soon, you found yourself knocking on the 505 dorm room, followed by a serious megumi whose gaze described nothing but pure anger and hurt. a chill ran down your spine in alert, the cloud 9-like feeling dissipating into something colder. "can i come in, 'gumi?" your voice was soft and so low that it almost became a whisper in the end. megumi just stepped to the side without a word, leaving you just the tiniest of space to enter his room, brushing your body past his.

"there wasn't any spicy ramen so i bought you shoyu instead. i doubted the spicy ramen would've been good for you if you're sick anyway but- is everything okay?" his current state was what stopped your rambling: megumi still stood by the door, now closed, back against it and eyes so dark that even the deepest of oceans could not compare with it.

he suddenly pushed himself from the door, walking to sit on his desk, back against you. his thoughts were clouded with the image of you kissing sukuna, with what noritoshi had inquired a few moments ago. his mind couldn't comprehend it, why? why you and not any other girl in this forsaken college? why did he have to fall for you like this? why did it have to hurt this much seeing you in his dorm, with those beautiful eyes pleadingly looking at him? why did he have to care so much?

"you can sit down on my bed y/n" his voice sounded pained, strained. you didn't think twice before doing it, placing the hot bowl on top of his desk. megumi took the container out, looking at it with an ache inside his chest. his heart hurt more that he could phantom, the thought of you caring for him enough to do this; to do any of the things you've done during your whole friendship. it was stupid to keep hiding it.

"i need to ask you something y/n" you looked at him, who still wasn't looking at you. "i need to tell you something too 'gumi" megumi closed his eyes, like the mere mention of his nickname out of your lips hurt him more than a blade cutting through his pale skin.

you waited and waited, seconds and minutes until he deigned himself to look at your face, your hair and neck. he pictured what noritoshi told him, the purple marks on your skin, your tousled hair and bitten lips. megumi felt his heart breaking even more at that thought, because he wasn't the one that had left you like that, that had pleasured you enough, that had taken care of you like he wanted to.

"i met noritoshi today, you know?" megumi wore a sad smile, one that turned into a scowl so rapidly you thought it didn't even happen. "he seems like a cool guy but he has a big ass mouth that talks more than it should." his gaze met yours and somehow, only for the briefest moment, you realized what was about to come out of his mouth and nothing could've prepared you to answer it. "y/n, did you fuck gojo?"

your whole body tensed, every muscle restrained with shock. would you say the truth and loose the opportunity to confess? would you lie to him for megumi to find out later? your mind was running by a mile a minute, only noticing the hurt in his eyes, hurt that you caused.

you inhaled deeply before answering, soothing that weird feeling on the pit of your stomach, "yes i did, but i can explain! please let me explain!" megumi's scoff was what started to break your heart a little, then his disgusted face and the incredulous expression on it. "explain?! why would i want you to explain to me what you did with him?!" he stood from his chair, running both of his hands through his hair.

"i didn't want to believe it y/n, i truly didn't. when noritoshi told me about what he saw the other day and asked me if you two were involved i truly thought he was mental. but guess what i saw seconds later?" megumi paused, almost like he wanted you to guess it. "i saw you kissing sukuna on the back of the gym! gosh y/n, his brother was probably changing two feet away!"

suddenly your body felt too small in his room, his anger wasn't making sense to you. why did he have to be so mad anyway? you were old enough to do whatever you wanted and he was in no place to tell you what to do. "why do you care so much megumi?! i'm a big girl and i can do whatever i want with my body and my life! you're in no position to tell me who i fuck, who i kiss and who i hang out with!"

your body had moved on its own, standing up from his bed and coming closer to him. rage was boiling inside your veins, so hot and venomous that it clouded your vision. megumi scoffed again and threw his hands in the air, "isn't it obvious?! its because i love you y/n! i've loved you since the very first day i met you  and this that you have done," he said pointing at you with his fingers accusingly, "this is breaking my heart and i cannot stop mourning for something that wasn't mine in the beginning!"

his eyes shut down entirely, his breath came out in labored pants but he no longer felt that overwhelming and heavy feeling on his shoulders. "i don't want to know what you did with gojo or sukuna but i do want to know if they were the only ones" you clenched and unclenched your fists on each one of your sides, "no, and before you explode again let me explain. before telling you anything, i want you to know that i love you too megumi. not like a friend, not anymore. but after i tell you everything you might think that i'm a slut, a whore, whatever you want to call me. it doesn't mean that i will not feel the same about you, but it can change what you feel about me"

megumi sat down on his chair again, slumped on it like  just standing up was tiring enough. "i made a bet with more of my teachers, i will not include the main object of the bet but all i can tell is that it involved sex" megumi grimaced at the explanation. "all this time when i told you i was busy with school work i wasn't. i lied to you and yuuji and i'm sorry about that. i'm sorry about everything honestly."

megumi's face did nothing to express what battle he was fighting inside but you could almost see the gears moving. "when you say teachers, you mean everyone that teaches you in some way, right?" you nodded, too lost to even acknowledge what he was inquiring, "does it include my father y/n?" your eyes widened, something that megumi noticed. you could not stomach watching his expression falter, the way his own eyes widened too. "y/n did you have sex with my father?"

your eyes still didn't meet his, tears were forming on them and threatened to fall any minute now. "answer me, did you fuck my dad y/n?!" your silence, fidgeting and tears was all he needed for an answer. if his heart wasn't broken yet, if that little flame of hope didn't extinguish before, it did now. "get out." his tone was solemn and hard, it was not a debatable order. "what?" you asked, meeting his face. "i said get out. i don't want to see you anymore y/n. get out of my room and my life, i can't stand being with you right now"

more tears cascaded down your cheeks, wetting your face in the least appealing way. " 'gumi please let me explain. please hear me out and try to understand me, please" you were begging him right now, crumpling his shirt under your fist. megumi pulled your hand away without any trace of love and simply said, "get the fuck out and don't you ever call me 'gumi again"

and so you did. with a breaking heart and a broken soul, with fresh tears running down your face and a new found hatred for yourself.

you left the only person that had cared for you enough.

a/n: well, well, well. look who came back! i've been MIA for so long jeez, i was really enjoying my summer holidays spending time with family and friends, taking some time for me and my mental health. i hope you understand!

anyway, i hope you're enjoying your holidays too or if you started school/work i hope it is going great! see ya soon xoxo