𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 | 𝐂𝐡𝐨𝐢 𝐁𝐞𝐨𝐦𝐠𝐲𝐮 𝐟𝐟

Chapter 5

I spent all Sunday trying to figure out what was wrong with me.

I couldn't accept the fact that I felt that way when I saw Beomgyu kissing another girl that wasn't me.

In my head it didn't make sense, Beomgyu was the close friend that could always rely on me whenever he needed it. Nothing else.

What has gone wrong from there?

The fact that I most probably had feelings for him was throwing me off.

I was already scared of ruining things between us. We just recently got close and built a beautiful friendship.

I couldn't possibly destroy everything just for my stupid heart that broke in two when I saw that scene last night.

Being the overthinker that I am, the day passed in a flash and I didn't even notice that it was almost bedtime.

I always wanted to be in love, but I didn't quite like how I was feeling right now.

I had already had a bad experience with Jay and I wasn't ready to ruin my relation with all my friends for this.

That's why I decided to keep quiet and act as if things were the same between us two.

I guess that loneliness really is that scary.

The next day I attended class trying to act as normal as possible, but the difference was that now I had a big burden to bury. None of my friends should find out about it.

"Y/n where did you go yesterday? I suddenly couldn't find you anymore" Asked me Lia worriedly when we met

"Uhm I had to leave early cause I wasn't feeling well" I answered trying to sound as convincing as possible

"Are you all well? What happened?"

"Nothing to be worried about, just had a few drinks and didn't want to ruin the fun for you guys" I said with a fake smile that I hoped she didn't see through

"No but you should have called me and I would have come with you. Next time don't hesitate to ask for help" she answered with a stern tone

"Thank you Lia" I answered with now a genuine smile.

I was always thankful that I had those people around me. They were always so supportive of me and I wished to stay with them for a long time, cause I felt like they made my days better.

After that party and after discovering my feelings for Beomgyu nothing much happened.

I just studied hard with the others for these fucking exams that were around the corner.

I was successful in hiding my feeling from Beomgyu and in fact he had no clue, I acted as I always used to do when I was with him.

What he didn't know was that I felt like dying everytime he brought up that kiss he shared with a random girl at the party.