tease~mattheo riddle

return to hogwarts

IF I WRITE 'YOUR/YOU ETC INSTEAD OF ME/MY/I ETC IM SORRY I FORGET BUT ITS SUPPOSED TO BE A FIRST PERSON STORY SO I APOLOGISE IM RUBBISH AT THIS STUFF!!

y/n or lucinda chappleton POV:

first day at hogwarts. well not exactly first day but first day back in 2 and a half years. the last time i was in the building was halfway through 3rd year. so yes i do know everyone, well remember most people since then. no one knew that i was here except for a few 5th years that must have recognised me. i wasn't sure how though because i had changed, a lot.

this was the moment where i would internally die. i was suffering from a few mental disorders ever since i moved to italy. i felt alone and trapped. i was rarely allowed to leave the house so it was basically a prison. obviously i didn't have any friends because i didn't go to school and couldn't contact the ones that i had at hogwarts.  but i did have some family over in italy so i was at least able to see them instead of my traumatic household ever day.

i took many deep breaths and cracked my knuckles. as i swung open the large oak doors of the great hall, all eyes fell on me. i mean i was expecting it as i had changed a lot. so did everyone else but they have seen each other every day and they haven't seen me in 2 and half years. - my body was now a lot more curvy. my bum had gotten bigger and so had my breasts. when i got back the england me and aunt sheila went shopping and i bought makeup and lots of new clothes which fit my style. i took more car for myself and pride in my appearance and i looked like a whole new woman. if my parents saw me they would recognise me and my sister, well she would just be jealous. i was prettier than her and my parents knew it but hated me for it as charlotte was their favourite child. - my eyes stayed glued to the tiled floor and i bit your tongue. finally i built up the courage to look up and as i  did i never made eye contact with a single person. that was until i started walking down the middle and spotted pansy, who was my best friend and hopefully still is. she looked so happy to see me and i smiled at her then carried on walking with a big grin on my face. i reached the end of the great hall only to be met by the headmaster dumbledore.

"good evening students" dumbledore started, "as you can see here miss chappleton has returned to hogwarts" he turned to smile at me and i returned the gesture. i looked around the halls only to meet eyes with pansy again. she was still smiling and waved so i waved back. "she has come back most clearly for her 6th year after she moved to italy" dumbledore continued. i gulped at the word 'italy' as i now think of your time there as hell. "miss chappleton will not need to be sorted into a house again and she was and still is a slitherin as so were her parents" i froze at the word 'parents' and that is where my anxiety kicked in.

anxiety had been my worst mental disorder since i had basically been trapped for so long in a house in italy and travelling back or should i say escape back home by yourself was a large trigger. i looked up and around the great hall only to see everyones eyes still on me. my breathing started getting heavy and my vision blurry until my eyes met with a hazel gaze. it felt like time froze. they were such gorgeous eyes. - eyes are an important feature and one of the best on a human in my opinion. they are so powerful and stand out in a person. - time eventually went back to normal and i felt so much calmer. i wonder what helped me overcome my almost panic attack.

D: miss chappleton please have a seat at the table so we can all begin eating

i nodded and headed over to where pansy was seated. i wasn't even close to the bench when she came running over to me and attacked me with a warm embrace.

i hugged her back and we squeezed on to each other. it felt amazing to finally have a hug of a friend again, especially my best friend.

P: omg lucinda your back i missed you!!!
L: i missed you so much pans, thank god you didn't forget about me
P: don't be silly, how could i ever forget about my bestfriend

we both take a seat and i sit between pansy and theodore.

T: welcome back luce it's been so long

he said hugging me

L: i know i missed you too theo

i said hugging back

dumbledore clicked his fingers and food appeared on every house table. this was another part i was dreading. meal times. 3 times a day this would happen. breakfast, lunch and dinner. i have struggled with an eating disorder for a while now ever since my parents wouldn't feed me as much only around once or twice a day if i was lucky. they said they cared about me but they really didn't. when my dad got too angry he used to take it out on me by hitting me. i looked around the table at everyone gathering food and i felt sick by the smell. my aunt sheila and uncle dave helped me with my eating but it didn't get much better and they understood. they never forced me into anything or hurt me and which i was thankful for.

P: aren't you gonna eat luce, you look starving?
L: no i already ate pans but thankyou

the food was sausages. i used to loved sausages and mash or toad in the hole and now it makes me feel sick. sometimes i have even thrown up about the thought or sight or smell of food which obviously wasn't normal. i just sat there watching everyone devour their food and i said hello to some students and had a catch up witb pansy. turns out she is dating blaise and they still have the same friend group with me still included. me, pansy, blaise, theodore, draco, mattheo, nancy and zara were in the group. i missed them all so much i couldn't explain it. having no friends to talk to for 2 and a half years is torture.

we all agreed that we would meet in the boys room tonight after i finished unpacking. i thought we would just all have a catch up and talk like we used to in 3rd year but knowing we have all grown up i don't think that will be happening. pansy even made it clear we do more exciting stuff now. god knows what that means but i'll find out tonight.

everyone had finished eating and started leaving the great hall.

p: i'm gonna show luce the dorm, you guys coming?

Z, N: yeah we are

we all said bye and headed to the common room. slytherin obviously.