tease~mattheo riddle

seventeen

morning came fast and i woke up late as everyone was already about to leave.

"hey luce are you coming for breakfast" zara asked.

"no i'm good" i said and sunk into my blanket.

"okay well come when your ready" she smiled.

they all left and i just cried into my knees. how could he say that after everything?

the day went fast. i hadn't gotten out of bed only to the toilet. i hadn't eaten anything all day or got dressed just cried.

everyone had gone to bed and i just laid there not even crying because i couldn't anymore. it had to be at the worst time aswell. i needed to get up so i out on some joggers and a hoodie and looked in the mirror. thoughts flooded my head: ugly, fat, worthless, pathetic.

i got up and walked out of the door only to see ella sat in the common room with her friend.

"hey bitch sorry i stole ya man" he smirked.

i looked at her in disgust.

"he wouldn't want you anyway i mean look at you" she laughed.

i ran off tears welling in my eyes once again as i made my way to wherever i was going. i found myself by a water fountain and got some water. i just needed to go somewhere. i went on a long walk and headed back to my room my eyes puffy from crying.

a few days had passed and i just stayed in my room. i hadn't eaten or seen anyone just my roommates. i only got up for the toilet and showered once. i had no energy and no happiness. i had even cut myself many times to distract myself. it worked but the pain came back. i had loads of alcohol. there was about 3-4 bottles of vodka on my nightstand. bad i know. i skipped classes and didn't communicate not even to my roommates cuz i was too down to. they tried to help me but i just locked myself in the bathroom. i know they were just trying to help but i couldn't accept it.

pansy pov

lucinda needed help. she was so depressed about what happened with mattheo and i knew she had many struggles of her own especially with her family but i didn't tell anyone that cuz she didn't want me to and i respect that. it hurts me that she's feeling like this. all i want to do it help her and give her a big hug but she won't let anyone go near her. i feel so sorry for the poor girl. i was going to speak to mattheo to see if he could sort this out.

"mattheo"

"what do you want" he said sounding sad.

he had tried many times to ask how luce was but i couldn't understand it and blocked him out cuz it was his fault she was like this but she was too bad now so i had to talk to him.

"luce isn't doing good" i said.

"omg" his eyes shot up with worry.

"you really hurt her. she hasn't been out of her room and hasn't eaten in days she needs help"

"i know i'm so fucking sorry. ella put me on some kind of love potion so i fall for her and hate potion so i hate luce but i can't tell her because none of you would let me see her"

"omg i'm so sorry mattheo and she would even speak to us so she deffo wouldn't talk to you"

he looked at the floor.

"but now i know what happened i feel you really need to speak to her"

"yeah can i do it now? i miss her so fucking much and i just want to be there for her" he said sad.

"yes ofc follow me"

we went to our dorm