I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (JAEJOONG FANFIC) #WATTYS2015

CHAPTER 54

Jaejoong sadly stared at the painting that Lena gave him. Memories were constantly playing in his head, as if trying to torture him, day and night.

"I'm sorry, Lena. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to take care of you . . . I'm sorry that I easily gave up on our love. I know I've hurt you badly because of the foolish things I did . . . Somehow I can't help but wonder . . .Where are you now Lena? I know you're with Daichi. And just thinking that he's beside you right now is already killing me," tear slowly started to race down Jaejoong's face. "I'm sorry, Lena. I know that even if I say it a million times, I can never undo all the foolish things that I did and all the hurtful words that I said. My mind is all messed up . . . that I can't seem to think straight."

He suddenly cupped his face with his hands. "What should I do Lena? What should I do? I can't move on. . . No matter how I tried. . . I can't get you out of my mind . . .Now I know you're the one I truly love. So please tell me . . . how am I supposed to continue living when my heart is constantly crying out for you? How can I continue holding Keiko's hand . . . when it is your hand I am searching for? Please tell me, how can I hide the truth? I don't want Keiko to get hurt over and over again because of me . . . How can I pretend? What should I do? How I wished that I could just die here . . . right now. I don't want to feel the pain anymore. And I certainly don't want to hurt Keiko and our child. Please god . . . help me . . .I'm so confused," he uttered as he sobbed uncontrollably.

Several minutes passed . . . Soft knocks were suddenly heard. Jaejoong tried to wipe away his tears.

"Come in," he tried to utter.

Keiko slowly entered his room. "Jaejoong, aren't you hungry yet? How about if we have breakfast already? Your friends are already waiting for you," she said sweetly.

Jaejoong tried to act normal. He didn't want to hurt Keiko's feelings anymore. He was still constantly reminding himself that she was carrying his child.

"I'm not hungry yet," he just replied.

"Oh come on, Jae . . . Let's eat already. Our baby is hungry already. You don't want anything bad to happen to our baby, would you?" Keiko said with a sweet smile.

Jaejoong sighed. "Fine . . . let's eat," he said in defeat. Keiko had been using her condition to constantly push him to do things she wanted him to do. And because he was very concerned with their baby, all he could do was follow her every whim.

Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Max were already eating in the dining room when Keiko and Jaejoong entered.

"Hyung, let's eat," Max said with a smile.

Jaejoong sadly stared at his friends. He already knew what they were thinking. Just like him, they were already tired of Keiko as well.

Ever since Lena left, Keiko had been acting weird. She became more possessive and demanding. And she had been continuously monitoring and checking all of Jaejoong's moves.

"Let's eat, baby," Keiko lovingly said to Jaejoong.