I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (JAEJOONG FANFIC) #WATTYS2015

CHAPTER 17

Jaejoong suddenly opened his eyes. It was as if he heard someone whisper his name. He slowly looked around. The other DBSk boys were still asleep. Then he noticed the small envelope on the table near him.

"What's this?" he asked himself.

He picked up the envelope and saw that it had his name written on it. He immediately recognized the handwriting . . . it belonged to Lena.

With trembling hands, he quickly opened the letter. Somehow he didn't want to read it because he was afraid of what he might find out. But then he knew that he needed to know . . . even if it was going to hurt him.

Jaejoong,

First of all, I would like to apologize. I'm sorry for keeping secrets from you, for making you confused on whether you like me more than a friend or not, and for disturbing your life and bringing you so much trouble.

I know you're just being kind to me. I know you don't love me . . . and you will never will. Frankly I have always told myself that there is no way you will ever fall in love with me. Somehow I thought I had already gotten used to it and that I had already accepted it as the truth.

But yesterday, you made me realize something . . . And that is I can no longer be your friend. I am already having hope that there is a chance that you will also fall in love with me . . . And i know it's just a delusion. That is why I suddenly decided I must try to stop myself before I end up hurting both of us.

I love you, Jaejoong. I love you with all my heart. I don't think I can pretend anymore. I can't pretend that I just like you as a friend. And somehow even if I try I don't think I can ever accept the fact that I am just your best friend. There is always a part of me which always hopes and dreams that you will eventually learn to love me more than just a friend.

I know and I understand that you can't offer me anything except friendship. And frankly, I am grateful that you didn't push me away after you learned my true feelings for you. But I have to be honest to myself.

I can no longer accept our friendship. I want something more . . . . something I know you can never give. So I guess this is the main reason why we have to say goodbye to each other.

Somehow I think if I can still remain friends with you. I will end up hurting myself more and I will just make you more confused. I don't want to cause you any trouble. So before I end up doing something foolish. I have to say goodbye to both of us.

Thank you for all the happy memories . . . . Thank you for being my best friend. I will never forget all the things you have taught me. And I will always cherish the happy and sad memories we shared. I will always be thankful that I had the chance of meeting someone like you.

Thank you for everything, Jaejoong. I will never forget you. Just always remember that I will always care for you . . . and pray for your success in life. I will always pray for you to achieve everything you dream of.

Good luck, my friend. I don't think we will ever meet each other again.

I have left a gift for you in my room. I have been wanting to give it to you for a very long time now. But I somehow can't find the right time and I always lack the courage to do so.

I know you will like my gift. I hope you will take care of it, the same way I have taken care of it for the past ten years.

It is my way of saying . . . thank you for being my friend . . . I love you and I will always have a special place for you in my heart . . . . and lastly . . . goodbye.