LOVE

Chapter 15

Rose doesn't remember much from her childhood, yet she remembers very well all the time spent at Felix's house, over time it just the happy memories became countless and it became her safe place. but once Sam walked out on her, it became more hurtful to be there then anything else and slowly she started cutting off her stay there short until she just couldn't bear going.

Rose had two options, either she goes home alone, cries herself to sleep and falls into her dark place, or goes to Sam. Normally she would go with the first option, that way nobody is harmed. But this time she didn't care about others, she just didn't want and couldn't afford to go back to her dark place, not because of Marley once again. So, on her way back from the party she went to pick up Sam, and she really didn't care much about what they would do. All she cared about was not staying alone.

Once in front of his house, she was calling him but he wasn't answering his phone, the thought of just leaving accrued to her, but how could she do so when she knows going inside is in all ways better then leaving alone, so she knocked.

Sam did it on purpose, he wanted to trigger on her their memories, from how they met in the front porch, to how they spent their summers nights in his room watching movies and cuddling, she used to spend from mid July to mid August there, just the two of them, she felt so safe there that she even sometimes turned off plans to stay there, she cherished every night, they were just are more precious, none harmful. The difference between her nights with Sam and those with Marley are, the way she knew with Marley every second, every word he'll say will be the reason of tears she'll drops once in France, while when she's with Sam, nothing can possibly hurts her, his parents' house is equal to pure happiness and joy, she cried there only once, it was three summers before she moved away for the simple reason of each one of them going back to their houses and she won't be able to see them until they come back the next summer, at that time Rose didn't knew any of her friends group yet only for Zoey and Angele but yet she wasn't that close to them back then, she felt abandoned, all of the people she knew lived away, plus she used to have this big crush on Sam and the thought of not seeing him again until next summer hurt her, but it was also the last time she saw him that way until now.

Olivia opened the door, welcoming her with hugs and kisses like usual, "Honey you look stunning!' Rose was in fact still with her dress and heels, her make up was ruined but Olivia knew her well enough to know the right thing to do was to ignore it. 'So ready for Djerba?" Rose's mind went blank for a moment, she forgot about Djerba, she couldn't think straight.

With everything going on, Rose forgot about the trip she was supposed to go on with Sam and his parents. It was planned for months, and Rose agreed to go for two reasons: she thought maybe going with Sam could possibly make them close again, and second, Djerba always meant relaxing and having fun and a good time, she couldn't decline any chance to be there.

"Did you forget?" "Opsie! I've been so busy lately that I've completely forgotten, don't get me wrong, in my mind I know from the 25th to the 5th I won't be here but I just forgot to pack and get ready! But don't worry I'll be on time like I always have been!" Olivia saw how tired and hurt Rose was, she could feel she hadn't gotten any rest. "You are allowed to take things slow and think about yourself, you know!" Rose looked at her with tears in her eyes. It was the first time someone allowed it. Maybe it is not the right word but that's how it felt, Rose felt like someone finally allowed her to rest and take time for herself.

As she walked up the stairs, and like Sam wanted too, Rose kept recalling the memories she had there and that's when it came back to her, two years ago, one month before she and Stan got together

Rose : Age 21
Sam : Age 26
Rose and Sam had the house for themselves, their parents went on a 4 days trip together and like usual, Sam's sister and Rose's brother weren't in town, so they were home alone.
They spent their time in the pool, drinking. They were both hardly ever drunk. Sam must have seen Rose drunk twice during their whole friendship.

It was the second night, Rose and Sam were equally drunk. Rose kept holding Sam's hands and telling him how much she loved him and so did he. She for some reason took Sam's phone and immediately started crying once she saw her face as his wallpaper. She put on some Afrobeats music, she loved to dance on it, letting her body moves with the music and so did Sam, at some point they were both dancing really close feeling each other's body, he wanted to kiss her so bad, and somehow did she, he was drunk he wasn't really thinking. Usually when this happens he always breaks the vibe by any way he could think of. But this time it was stronger, mutual and harder. He just couldn't keep himself from getting his face really close to hers, she looked at his eyes, she could hear their hearts beating, "Are you gonna kiss me or what?" She asked him, biting her lips, "I really want to, but" and just like that she cut him off by a kiss, they spent their night kissing and hooking up, but the next morning Rose didn't remember a thing, although Sam never forgot about it he acted like nothing ever happened, he knew it would complicate things between them and he wasn't ready for it yet.

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She couldn't believe how that memory was erased. At that moment she felt it, she felt how everything had changed, and for the first time in a while Sam wasn't just her best friend, but something more.

It was all clear on her mind now, she understood everything Sam told her before, he was right, it was obvious. She went to his room and as she opened the door, she saw how he added some of their pictures to his picture wall and it felt real. She asked him to go home with her so they could talk while packing, and so he did.