What in the world am I bargaining for?
Because it's been so long since I've been alone ,
All of a sudden this seems like a big world
Especially , for a broken hearted girl
A strong but vulnerable lover girl ,
Some one who actually loves love.
Desires love & desires to be loved.
She Loves to make others smile In joy
Now she's damaged and cannot trust
All because of a stupid boy.
Books and school should have been prioritized
But there was many childhood voids
And It was something about a boy
That gave her hope,
And every, now & then gave her joy.
Majority of the times it was pain and cries
But because she had hope and seen joy a few times .
She'll continue to hold on tight
Not even realizing , the tighter she holds
The more she dies , dies on the outside
And deeper on the inside.
She gets so confuse and wonder why ?
She just can't stand the lonely nights
So she keep asking herself
Why does she stay to fight
Herself won't lie
Then she's stressed .
She asks others
Hoping they'll lie
The ones who actual love her
Tell her the truth with their head high
And stand on it .
The ones who are afraid of her growth
Will lie then demand it !
She chooses to demand it !
Thinking it's her and change everything about herself .
Just to see she was taking for advantage
Sometimes it be like that
What others say , good or bad don't mean smack
Sometimes you just gotta get to the point , where you can no longer handle it .
