I am trying to figure out til this day, what is my purpose in life . I'm not sure if I'm suppose to know or not . It's not like I'm sitting around waiting for a miracle to happen. I am literally taking everything one day at a time. Depression is near and this is one of my biggest fears. Once depression comes rolling in, it gets more tough to heal . Depression will have you not thinking and just moving off of how you feel. I just wanna be alone so I can focus . Focus on me and the things I keep loosing focus on. I wanna love me to the point where I don't care who loves me and don't because I'm not there yet . I don't know if I ask for too much out or people or what because I feel like I'm giving them all of me and I'm not getting enough .
